I wish you would have found a way to tell us without making us worry, but I understand the anger can make us do things.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to. You're being so careful that I'm just trying to understand. You change your name, I get that. There's plenty of people going through both worlds and so if you wanted to make a name for yourself on your own terms, I can see why. I'm not thrilled with the idea, but you're still you, no matter the name you choose to go by.