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ᴀɴʏᴀ ᴄᴏʀᴀᴢᴏɴ; sᴘɪᴅᴇʀ-ɢɪʀʟ (spidergirl) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2018-01-29 11:47:00

Entry tags:

!network post, anya corazon / spider-girl (616), jon kasiya / amun (616)

JON KASIYA:

I didn't kill anyone, but I watched other people and didn't do anything about it. I don't understand why I didn't do anything about it. I don't understand how to deal with the fact that I let it happen either.

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	mysteryofset 2018-01-29 06:01 pm UTC (link)
	War is kill or be killed, Anya. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	spidergirl 2018-01-29 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	YOU almost got killed. You got really hurt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mysteryofset 2018-01-29 06:27 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps I should have been killed. I do not understand myself of late. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	spidergirl 2018-01-29 06:28 pm UTC (link)
	Don't say that — the should have been killed thing. You shouldn't have been, and I'm GLAD you weren't. What do you mean you don't understand yourself? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mysteryofset 2018-01-29 06:32 pm UTC (link)
	It is as it is. Hesitation is death in this sort of scenario. If not now, in Set's judgement. I did not kill anyone either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	spidergirl 2018-01-29 06:55 pm UTC (link)
	Set is really harsh if he thinks that sparing a life is bad. Which you've been trained to do so it should have been second nature. So you're... doubting yourself? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mysteryofset 2018-01-29 07:06 pm UTC (link)
	Death spares none, Anya, and an assassin is but a tool of that regnancy. What good is a blade that cannot cut? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	spidergirl 2018-01-29 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	You're more than just a blade. You're more than just a weapon. You're a human being with thoughts and feelings and things you want to do with your life that don't always match up with being an assassin. There's nothing wrong with that. You're allowed to be more than just a weapon. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mysteryofset 2018-01-29 07:24 pm UTC (link)
	Am I though? I am risable at best at radio, was passable as a personal assistant. Any skill I possess is because of my cultivation as an assassin. Perhaps it is true for some that they may follow their heart or some nonsense, but if one is exceptional, I think they are called to that. I am a weapon in the same way you are a spider. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

spidergirl
2018-01-29 08:13 pm UTC (link)

You get exceptional by doing something over and over again. You're smart. You're brave. You're a fast runner. You're studying business, and you're good at it. ~~You're a great kisser.~~ You ARE more than just a blade, and I am more than just a spider.

I know that it's hard breaking out of the mold that that's all you are, but I know that you're more than that.

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	mysteryofset 2018-01-30 01:54 am UTC (link)
	Business is far less satisfying than stabbing a person. ~~I enjoyed my work with the Maggia~~. I just thought that an international business degree would satisfy my previous employer's investment in my education. I do not know what that would be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	spidergirl 2018-01-30 01:57 am UTC (link)
	Is that the only reason you went to school? You don't like it at all? Well, we can try and find out. Do things you wouldn't normally do and see if anything clicks that you'd like to learn or do more of. I'll help you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mysteryofset 2018-01-30 03:02 am UTC (link)
	I was also working full time and infiltrating a criminal enterprise at the time. But I do not have much in common with the standard university student. I mean even back in Tumbleweed. What am I going to do, join a fraternity? Perhaps. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	spidergirl 2018-01-31 02:13 am UTC (link)
	You could get a full time job? When we get back, I mean. I'm sure there's criminal enterprises back there too, but it's a small town so you probably couldn't infiltrate. There's a lot of things we could try here. Like we could do one of those fancy cooking classes. You'd get to use sharp knives too. (Reply to this) (Parent)