You're telling me! They usually hide blasters in their front pouches, and they're not shy about using them.
Art isn't as hard as some people make it out to be. It's taking what's inside your heart and manifesting it to the outside world in another medium.
Depression is tricky - it's those things and more. I knew a person who was depressed for so long, they thought it was their normal state. I'm not sure you're depressed, though.