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thesxysalvatore (thesxysalvatore) wrote in the_triangle_rp,
@ 2012-04-10 03:45:00

Character(s): DaLena
Rating: TVD
Cautions/Warnings: language. Angst. sad!Damon
Location: somewhere.
Approximate Date: The day after Mount Freaky exploded
Status: Closed

Damon went looking for Elena--sort of. Which actually meant, he'd stopped avoiding her, and went to the beach. He'd spent yesterday and the day before avoiding her. Caroline had kept him sane since he'd seen her and Stefan kissing, for which he was grateful. Maybe she wasn't so obnoxious after all.

Stefan... Damon was avoiding him too. He had no right to be so insanely jealous of his brother. Elena was, after all, HIS girlfriend. But dammit, he was crazy with the green-eyed monster! He threw a rock at the ocean, skipping it a bit, before dropping to the sand.

He was really hoping that Klaus didn't show up. That was the last person he felt like dealing with. And he'd promised Caroline that he wouldn't try stuffing him in the volcano, and today, that one would be hard to keep.

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bewitcheries
2012-04-10 11:54 am UTC (link)

"Damon, it's not that simple. If it was, don't you think I'd already have done that?" Elena raised an eyebrow at him. She knew what he was doing, she'd seen it so many times before, and she shook her head a little, "Please don't push me away, Damon, not now."

Elena was more than aware of Damon's tactic, trying to push her away early so that it hurt less if she went back to Stefan. And while she was sure that Damon thought it would work, not only did she know from past experiences that it wouldn't, but it made things for her that much harder.

"Damon, don't start pushing me away now. If you don't want- if you're just going to shut me out then you're basically choosing for me. I'm trying to tell you that it's not as easy as just choosing Stefan. It's harder than that. He left, and you were there when no one else was. I need you to be honest with me, Damon, or what's the point in even having this conversation?"

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thesxysalvatore
2012-04-10 12:28 pm UTC (link)

Damon looked out at the ocean. 'You need me to be honest? I've BEEN honest, Elena! I've TOLD you how I feel. I don't know what more you want from me! You want me to sit and wait for you, like you did for my brother, when he didn't even fucking deserve it?! How long? How fucking long do I wait?! You say it's not that easy. No fucking shit! Like it's easy to sit here, and feel like I'm second choice because my brother fucked up.'

He turned to face her. His voice was raw and angry, but the emotion in his eyes wasn't anger--it was pain. 'Everyone thinks that I'M the big fuck up of the Salvatore brothers. But I'm not. I left Mystic Falls yeah. But I've never backed down from a responsibility. I make the difficult choices, when making them SUCKS. I let people THINK I'm the dick, to protect my brother, who doesn't seem to appreciate that.

'And HE ends up with the girl. It's the same tune, different song, for the past 100 years. The fucked up part? If you told me that I actually HAVE a shot? I'll probably sit here and wait. I'll hate myself every goddamned minute, but I'd wait.'

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bewitcheries
2012-04-10 12:41 pm UTC (link)

Elena stayed quiet as Damon's emotions bubbled over, and didn't try to interrupt him. She just watched quietly, and when he finally stopped speaking she pushed her hair off of her face and closed her eyes briefly. "Yes, and trying to push me away is really being honest with me, isn't it."

"Damon I don't know what to do. How the hell am I supposed to know what to do now? I have feelings for you, I'd be lying if I said I didn't, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't still love Stefan. You have both made mistakes, this isn't about you being the "fuck up" of the Salvatores, this is about me being stupid enough to fall for two people."

She sighed, shook her head and rubbed her arms lightly before moving slightly away. "I thought talking to you would help, but if you're just going to get mad I'll just stay away from both of you. I'm not asking you to wait, I'm not asking either of you to wait. All I can tell you is that I need time. I can't just turn around like that and know what I need to do. If Stefan wasn't here, things would be different, but if he had never left then they would be too. This is the hand I've been dealt, Damon. I am trying my best to figure out what to do. That's all I can give you right now, and I don't blame you if that's not enough."

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	thesxysalvatore 2012-04-10 12:58 pm UTC (link)
	'It may not be honest, but it's safer,' he said softly. 'And this isn't mad. This is me in pain.' He stood, shoving his hands in his pockets. 'How's that for honesty?' he murmured. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

bewitcheries
2012-04-10 01:09 pm UTC (link)

"Well maybe say that next time instead of snarky comments telling me what I will be doing," Elena said, pressing her fingers lightly to her forehead, "This is all I can offer you, Damon. I haven't got any answers right now. If that isn't enough, then that's perfectly within your right. I'm not asking anything of you, I'm just trying to let you know where I stand."

She shrugged, shoulders hunching again as she dropped her gaze back to the floor. She wasn't going to argue with him, least of all now. When she finally spoke again, her voice was hushed and not much above a whisper. "I don't want to lose either of you. I'm not stupid, I know things won't ever be the same, but I care about you both so much. This isn't easy on anyone, you know."

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	thesxysalvatore 2012-04-10 01:27 pm UTC (link)
	Damon sighed. 'I'll always be your friend. Whatever you decide.' He looked out over the water, watching the orange fiery rock spewing into the air and landing on the newly formed island. 'I'm going to go in, lay down for a bit,' he said softly. He cupped the nape of her neck and pulled her in, kissing the top of her head. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

bewitcheries
2012-04-10 01:34 pm UTC (link)

"I'm sorry, Damon," Elena mumbled, eyes screwing shut as she felt the soft kiss placed on the top of her head. She felt the tears well up, swallowing hard and she was so determined to try and keep her emotions to herself. For all her talk of lying and covering things up, she knew that this was different. She wouldn't push her emotions onto Damon, not after the conversation they had just had.

Instead she blinked hard, breathed out slow and hard, and reached over to squeeze his hand as she forced a bright smile on her face, even as the tears that hadn't quite spilled yet clung to her lashes. "Thank you. I don't deserve either of you, you know that right?"

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	thesxysalvatore 2012-04-12 12:23 pm UTC (link)
	Damon smirked. 'Let's skip the whole "I don't deserve you, no I don't deserve YOU, No No" bickering. None of us deserves the others, in good and bad ways. Yadda yadda. We've got each other. For better or worse and all that crap.' He hugged her tightly. 'Find me when you make up your mind,' he murmured. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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