Sirius let Remus help him up the stairs, managing to pull himself together a little during the slow climb. He was vaguely aware of James and Lily leaving common room, but could barely focus on anything past getting one foot in front of the other.
They made it into the dorm and Remus helped Sirius carefully onto the bed. He sat still, hunched over and trying to breathe normally, as Remus said something about pajamas and pulled away. Sirius slowly lifted his head, staring at the curtains on his four poster.
Red satin curtain, pulled wide. Something heavy on his back as he was... As something forced it's way into...
"Nooo..." He wrapped his arms around his head and began to keen, rocking back and forth. "No no no..."