AFTER 8 PM
There was so much she didn't know. Lily made some very valid points from being an outside observer, but had she known some key details of past events, she might see things a little differently. How could he tell her everything? He wanted her to understand, but he also really liked that she didn't.
"I rejected him, a few nights ago," he said quietly. "At least, I think I did." Remus didn't want to talk about that night, and what had almost been, but he thought it was vital in dissecting these most recent events. "I wasn't feeling well and he was taking care of me. It got.. a little intimate in the way we were touching and he.. I think, wanted to kiss me." He squeezed his eyes shut and lowered his head. "And I got scared. Because I couldn't believe he really wanted me. I couldn't understand why someone like him would want to kiss someone like me." He took a few shaky breaths and shook his head, ashamed of himself. "I tried to just stay close to him, but he was upset. I could tell. He left a minute later and I.. I know him.. I worry he's doing this because he feels he has something to prove. I wounded his pride."
Tears finally did escape when Remus opened his eyes and looked back up to face Lily again. "I'm in love with him."