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Severus Snape is not amused (severusnape) wrote in the_recruitment,
@ 2012-02-25 03:48:00

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! 02/1977, ! complete, ! thread, char: narcissa black, char: severus snape

Who: Narcissa & Severus
What: Chatting under the setting sun
Where: Hogwarts Lake
When: Late afternoon on Friday the 24^th of February
Status: Incomplete
Rating: G

Sometimes all it takes
is a walk round the lake
to ease your mind

The past few days had been enough to put the likes of Severus Snape in a good enough mood that much of Slytherin gave him odd looks, wondering what the hell had happened. He was still snarky and mostly unapproachable, but something in the way that he walked, no longer stalking or hunching as though he was fighting against the wind. More neutral expressions that weren't scowling or sneering at anyone. A lighter intonation when he talked to others. Even Slughorn noticed it, commenting that he must have won a massive Quidditch bet, before going on to ramble about this player and that whom he knew.

In reality, things were far better for him than he had hoped. Severus had thought about Narcissa's visit long and hard, many times, even scribbling notes to himself about his recollections beyond the haze of alcohol. He knew it wouldn't last — how could it possibly — but he held on all the same, letting himself enjoy the sensations. While they hadn't been open about their new status, mostly because Severus wanted to spare her the ridicule and disgusted looks which she would no doubt receive, he seemed more at ease when she was around, or when her name was mentioned. He hadn't uttered a word of this to Lucius yet, hoping that his friend would simply find out when it had fizzled out in time. Right now, all he could think about was how light his chest had been feeling, finally being given a chance at slight joy since events with Lily. It still stung, as he recalled her holding Potter's hand — enough. He shook his head, turning to look at Narcissa beside him, her hand held firmly in his, and he squeezed, allowing himself a small smile.

"This was an excellent idea. The lake looks marvellous with the sun setting above." Severus spoke in hushed tones, leaning down to whisper closer to her ear, almost as though they might be heard. He savoured the little rush that went through him.

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blonde_black
2012-02-25 10:02 am UTC (link)

It was easier when she was with Severus. Every worry and concern seemed to disappear and she could just enjoy herself and his company. When they were apart, she began to worry about others finding out about them, news getting back to her parents, and a howler arriving for the whole school to hear. Deep down, she was ashamed that she kept her relationship with Severus a secret, but her pride usually overcame it. She was a Black and being seen with a man who's blood status was much lower than her own would have been disastrous. No, the easiest thing for her to do was to ignore it all and just go with the moment. So far Severus had not complained about it and she could only hope it would pass a a mutual understanding while they were together.

She sighed as he squeezed her hand feeling so relaxed and at ease. Her head had been on his shoulder as they gazed out onto the lake, but she lifted it as he spoke. She smiled dreamily up at him, giving a small nod of her head. "Yes, it's quite romantic isn't it? I'm surprised there are not others here, although I do not mind being alone with you. It seems this week has taken over both our schedules when all I want to do is enjoy your company." It was strange to think, but she meant everything she said; she did not sugar coat it just to make him feel better or to win something she wanted. Well, perhaps that was a lie. What she wanted most was Severus, but it seemed she was able to get what her heart desired, as usual.

She shivered as his breath brushed against her ear, but smiled all the same. "I've been sad that we could not spend more time together," she said. "But perhaps we'll be able to this weekend? With the Quidditch game and Hogsmeade, I think they make for good excuses to be together."

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severusnape
2012-02-25 10:49 am UTC (link)

He listened to what she had to say with a small, sad smile. Since when had he become so lovestruck and emotional? Severus met her eyes as he turned to face her, free hand pulling her chin toward him. The fading reds and golds, though normally loathed colours, looked amazing playing off of her delicate features. She was such a perfect example of the ideal witch, he realised, watching her without being ashamed of his smouldering gaze, long fingers running so lightly against her jaw.

"Narcissa, I can hardly relay to you how the last few days have made me feel, but I must impress upon you the importance of appearances. I know they mean too much to you to be seen in public with me as more than... friends." It pained him to say, but he knew all too well the truth of his words. For that reason, he knew that she would never remain by his side, despite his wanting to think otherwise. His heart tried to come up with a beautiful picture of what their future would look like, but his brain never fully allowed him to succumb to the fantasy.

When he finally allowed himself to return to the moment, however, it was too tempting a situation to simply stand there and do nothing. Severus needed to give himself this moment, if for nothing else than to at least capture a bit of happiness in the short time that he estimated they had. With a cautious approach, he slowly lowered his face till his nose was bumping hers, black fringe falling before his eyes and making him look all the more bat-like. For once, as he eased in closer, he didn't care about his looks nor what anyone but Narcissa thought of him. The lightest touch of his lips to hers sent a wave of heat through him, his nerves on end.

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blonde_black
2012-02-25 10:57 am UTC (link)

It hurt Narcissa to see Severus understand the situation and take it so lightly. She still saw the pain in his eyes and heard it in his voice when he said it out loud and she shook her head, yet the words wouldn't come. She wanted to reassure him that that wasn't the case, that she didn't care what others thought, that he made her happy and that was all that mattered. But she found the words wouldn't come and she was overcome by a sense of grief and embarrassment. She lowered her gaze, ashamed that he had called it so precisely.

And yet he still wanted to be with her. She felt her heart melting and she realized, for once, she didn't deserve this. She didn't deserve this happiness or to have Severus here with her. He was so devoted to her, he didn't care what it meant for him. He couldn't walk down the hallway holding her hand for fear of what it would do to her reputation.

When he pulled her in for a kiss, she resisted at first, her thoughts negative. But his lips were soft and she was able to yield easily. She placed a hand on his chest, deepening the kiss and wanting to make the moment last. It seemed like that was all they would ever have, so she would make sure to enjoy everyone that they had.

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severusnape
2012-02-26 06:13 am UTC (link)

She didn't have to say a word. He could tell from her expression, her hesitation, and even the air about her as it practically crackled with tension. Sometimes he thought that he might be too perceptive for his own good, but better to be fully aware of a situation than to be caught off-guard. Ignorance was humanity's worst enemy.

As she responded, he allowed the hand on her jaw to travel to her neck, lightly tracing her hairline before tentatively running through, marvelling at the softness. His hand holding hers was itching to reach around her waist, but he held back, unsure just how forward he could be. This was still very new and since they were in a secluded location, he didn't want to risk going to far with her. Slytherin forbid that he should let himself go and enjoy this.

However, forcing himself to overcome the inner struggle, Severus let go of her hand and let his own tentatively touch her waist, eventually becoming bolder until his entire hand was holding onto her. He felt the warmth flow through him and he smiled against her lips, letting himself enjoy it.

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blonde_black
2012-02-26 06:36 am UTC (link)

Narcissa would never want Severus to feel awkward or not at ease with her. She wanted him to loose himself as she did with him. She could almost feel his thoughts as they kissed by the lake. As he tentatively put his hand on her waist, she took a step closer to him, lightly touching her body to his. Her arms went up to lock around his neck, her mouth opening just slightly. She was pleasantly surprised to find she tasted mint and her tongue darted out to taste it a little more. It was sweet and tangy; she liked it.

All worries and thoughts that plagued their relationship seemed to disappear the longer they stood together. His kisses were surprisingly supple and she found herself feeling greedy on getting as many as she could. Her thoughts didn't linger on if Severus was uncomfortable with this, not thinking that this may be the first time he had done something like this. She liked the feeling she got standing there in his arms and just assumed he felt the same way about her.

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severusnape
2012-02-27 04:35 am UTC (link)

This was like something out of a dream, perhaps a horrendously sappy and torrid dream, but a dream nonetheless. If only Narcissa knew that this was in fact his first foray into the world of snogging, she might have been less eager to continue, but as it was, he was enjoying himself and let himself put his all into his kisses, tilting his head just so, gripping her waist a little more confidently, and rubbing the nape of her neck in heated little circles. It all came naturally, Salazar knew from where.

As he was letting her exlore him, his own tongue tested the waters of her delicious lips and beyond. She tasted faintly of raspberries, a fruit that matched up amazingly well with the peppermint that he usually chewed. It was a sensory overload and he felt his body responding too much to the kiss, too much to be proper. He didn't want to push himself on her, so his damnable restraint caused him to break the kiss and slightly pull away, resting his forehead on hers.

"Sorry... I'm not used to..." Severus let it trail off, his hand stopping its rubbing motions yet not leaving the warmth of her neck.

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