"Never even saw it coming with Kathlynn... " admitted Noah. "Maybe I'm old-fashioned, or maybe just a little naive," he smirked slightly, but it lacked the dry humor his previous attempts at such had employed. "We both wanted kids... never figured she'd stop lovin' me if I couldn't give 'em to her though."
He was not telling Allie the whole story, and maybe it didn't matter, but he knew that in his edited version, Kathlynn came across as more of a bitch than she deserved, and as much as it hurt -- she didn't deserve that; at least part of the blame was Noah's to shoulder.
"Thing is, we, uh... did get pregnant once," he admitted. "Beginner's luck... she was fifteen and scared as hell... shit, we both were. Guess we did what we thought we had to do at the time... " -- he was still leaving out details, he hoped he and Allie were past judgment by this point but if there weren't, well... he could give her their teenage rationale all day if it meant something to her. "Now here we are, mid-twenties, stable enough to give a kid everything they'd ever need, and... "
"I think she held on to a lot of that... lot more than I ever realized," he said sadly.