River Tam | No Power In The 'Verse Can Stop Me (lettheriverrun) wrote in the100,
She could feel the panic starting when Simon said they weren't together but River took a deep breath and tried to push it back down. She was better now, she could control things most of the time and she had to trust people when they said they would help her although mostly she trusted Simon and the people on Serenity. Except for Jayne, River knew she'd never trust him because he tried to hand them over to the Alliance.
"I want to stay with you," she said. "Have you missed me? Someone said that I had been here before but I don't remember. How is that possible. If I'd been here once, I should know that. Is it because of my brain? Because they took part of it out?" River knew what had been done to her and despite what people thought, had a fairly good understanding of it. It was just that she couldn't always control her behavior especially in a place like this where there were so many people and she could hear them all in her head.