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Dame Evie Frye (dontdie) wrote in the100, @ 2016-01-08 06:56:00

Dear Henr Mr. Green,

While I know this letter will never reach you, especially while I'm in captivity, I still feel it nessessary to air my thoughts in a private forum. You may arrive here, forcing my hand to inform you this in person, which will likely be all the more painful.

All of my life, I've wanted to be what my father wanted for me. He was a good man, truly. You know that better than most. But I think, perhaps, it's fair to say that I've made a number of rash decisions in my life simply because I thought it would make him happy and is what he wanted for me.

I think, after much thought and reflection on the matter, agreeing to your proposal was rather hasty of me. And not because I lack affection for you. No, I do hope I've made it clear in the past that I truly enjoy your company, and yes I believe we could make a satisfactory marriage through the ages. But therein less the problem: I have come to realize that I do not want merely satisfactory. I have challenges to face in my life not only because I am an Assassin, but because I am a woman, and I am now striving to never be... Just. I would not want to wait for love to come down the road, and I would never want you to wait and hope for something that may never be more than genuine caring. You are very important to both me and the Brotherhood, Mr. Green, and you deserve the very best. I simply fear for us both that may not be me.

I write this knowing I will never receive a response from you, and even still hope good things for your future. Though, perhaps, it was also an exercise for my own mind. I may live to regret this, or burn it later, when I'm not delirious listening to Jacob and his new friends yammer on loudly.

I wish you the very best, no matter how far apart we are.

All of my sincere affection,
Dame E. Frye.