He can't just blame that on the TARDIS. You were on it when the Earth got moved. He's the one that left you behind. I can be civil or even pleasant to him because I really don't want to get into all of this and I know he's still important to you, but I think even if I liked him being the only one from our world who was never a companion would be rough. And I've tried. That's why I even watched any of those videos, I thought if I saw him from outside the context of what happened in London or what he's done and said to you it would help.
I hate that I have to leave you behind as well. Even though I'm still a little mad at you for giving up and deciding to destroy the rift yourself. Imagining you stuck in there gives me the creeping horrors. I used to have nightmares that Owen was like that, still somehow conscious even though his body had been destroyed by the radiation, and I'm not even completely in love with him.