It's a wonder we didn't eat the other given how we were set up against one another in all things. You probably would've had it easier, had there only been one of us. No need for false hope on my end, and he would've been able to get past your supposed place in society as a bloody helpmate. Not as many "what if's" that way.
And I wish you didn't overthink everything. Who knows, maybe things'll change here. Radiation to warp our thinking until we're less extreme and more the happy-medium.