It's complicated, Belle. So, very complicated. It was a large part of who I was. For centuries. I was feared, respected. I'm still not sure how to be without that. I'm scared to be without that. With time, maybe I'll get used to it. And stop wanting the power.
But, power like that, it's seductive. It's hard to resist, especially once you've already tasted it.
I knew I should have stayed away from the network until this had all blown over. You didn't need this. None of you did.