I'm sorry that happened to you, and all of his victims. I'm sorry that they had to get justice. I completely agree with you, though. Wanting someone dead doesn't ... make you feel better. It might help, I guess, but I think that's what separates us from the ones that want to improve the world from the ones that want to destroy it.
I don'tMy When I was a kid, my father found out about my visions - I thought he could help me? That I could trust him. He locked me in a room and used me to further his cult instead, tried to brainwash me, convinced me that what I was doing was for the betterment of the world when it was really just to line his pockets. He's still alive, and I could've killed him, I guess, but
It didn't feel like closure, at that point. Just that it would have made me a worse person than he is.