It sounds like you are. It isn't easy for me every day either, believe it or not.
The entire universe? He could do that?
Sometimes I have those same thoughts. The what ifs - is it even possible to stop them all? Can it be done? What happens if I don't? I don't know if we can stop them all, but I'd rather die trying. I don't think this world is as much of a paradise as it looks, though. I think it has its own challenges.
Well, I think you can begin by just telling one person what's on your mind. I like hearing what you have to say.