betsy/septimus.
I have spent a very long time to control my own feelings. When I see memories or get flashes of feelings, I have to constantly remind myself that those feelings are not my own. It's the same as numbing yourself of your own feelings. Some ignore it, some immerse themselves in activities and hobbies. It was the same before I made a deal with a mystic. He traded in sorrow, and he knew mine was immeasurable. He took it in return for assistance with Fan a friend who was being erased from reality. It was a small price to pay.