If the animals do not work then I will have little choice other than to accept that the Fates have made their decision as to the course of my life. I will do what I had been considering doing all those years ago when the Nazarene came to me at Mary's tomb - I will sit and wait for the sun to rise. It will be quick. I will go to the Underworld and be judged. It is my dearest dream that my gods and the Hebrew God will allow Mary and I to be together once more in death as we were not in life.