remus j. lupin (lukanthropos) wrote in the100, @ 2015-05-14 11:48:00 |
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Entry tags: | !network post, abigail griffin, bellamy blake, clarke griffin, james potter, octavia blake, remus lupin |
network post: remus lupin (to those in charge, neville, james, sirius)
FILTERED TO CHANCELLOR GRIFFIN, CLARKE GRIFFIN, OCTAVIA BLAKE, BELLAMY BLAKE*
+ JAMES POTTER, SIRIUS BLACK, NEVILLE LONGBOTTOM:
*(Remus has inferred that these people in addition to the Chancellor seem to have some power or at least can contact people in power, so they're in on the filter)
My name is Remus Lupin; I've been living here since the beginning of April. I [...] need to tell you something. I'll come to you in person but I want to get things written down and sent before I can back out for the fourth or fifth time this week.
I'm a werewolf. [...] In my world, that means I've got a condition known as lycanthropy, or more accurately werewolfry, that affects nearly every aspect of my life. I've been this way since I was four.It
A girl named Ruby confessed publicly that she's also a werewolf, but her condition and mine are not the same. She has the ability to control herself, and she's able to transform at will. I am not. My transformations are entirely tied to the full moon, and [...] I have no control when I'm in that state even if I'm conscious and able to remember what happens. Werewolves from my world are incredibly dangerous.TheyWe hunt humans exclusively. Place us between a human and a bear and we will always attack the human, without provocation, even if the human is a dear friend. I would kill my family. I almost did kill my own mother once.IMy friends learned how toI'm telling you this, because last monthI was with my friendsI made the mistake of thinking that it would be safe if I transformed in the woods, and stayed away from other people. However, I hadn't accounted for the mountain lions —weI was attacked, which provoked the wolf, and in chasing the mountain lions down I came upon another human.
I don't remember things well. It was chaos, but I knew the next morning that I may have attacked him, that I might have bitten him. There was no sign of him afterward, and I thought perhaps I was mistaken in my memory. At the time, I hadn't been willing to risk telling anyone, because I was afraid of what you'd do to me. In my world, laws against werewolves are very strict, particularly in cases of suspected attack. I was afraid, I was a coward, and I said nothing.
[...] I'm telling you this because I believe that while I was restrained during this past full moon, the attack on the Grounder village is my fault. I think it was caused by a werewolf, and that the werewolf was the man I'd attacked a month prior. He would have had no control, no knowledge of what he was about to do, and [...]
This is my fault.
I understand if you choose not to keep me here, or carry out whatever punishment you see fit.