Jacob / Ed Damn That explains why it's personal, then. Not only did you force her out, but you did it using a weapon she thought she knew best to wield. And if she's from before the battle - I assume she'd have to be from before her end of it, given that she's alive - that hatred is probably as potent as ever.
I'm sorry you went through all that. Obviously, I mean. But I'm sorry not that you made the choices you did, but that you felt they were your best options. I'm sorry someone who should have been better wasn't, that they used you against your family, and I'm sorry that the older brother who'd tell you as violently as I do now that it wasn't your fault isn't here to do so in a way you might believe.