trish/lincoln
The offer hasn't changed. I'm glad you wrote all this out. It's important that we acknowledge when it gets difficult. We can keep each other in check.
I know what you meant, about it being harder. If I'm not in medical, it's harder to find something to fill the time with here. There was always something else to do, and a lot of things that didn't involve drinking. It is really good that you could keep alcohol around your place and not drink it. I don't think I could have done that. I never tried. I just didn't keep it around at all. And then after... I lost my job not too long ago, I almost went back. More than once. My whole life was out of control. I didn't, but that was the closest I've been. It hasn't been easy coming back from that.
What I've faced isn't the same as what you have, but that doesn't make my problems more real than yours. Your struggles are just as real as anyone else's.