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Jared Corbo ([info]protective_seal) wrote in [info]tensor,
@ 2011-04-29 13:23:00

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Entry tags:jared_corbo, petra_kristensen

Petra, backdated to last night
Jared was pretty damn good at video games, and he would brag endlessly about it if given the chance. Especially if it meant that he could impress a pretty girl. With Petra, though, he wasn't as worried about impressing her. It was easy to be around Petra. Not that she didn't occasionally make him nervous or want to be better behaved, but he never felt like he needed to do something entirely foolish to get her attention. Not that that would stop him from doing something foolish.

"So you have to get the box from there to there," he said. He was sitting on the floor, back against one of the couches in the Games Room of the Student Activities Center. It had taken a wee bit of threatening and wheedling on his part, but he had gotten everyone else to clear out. He held the remote and went through the first level without even moving his hands. The field did all the work for him. It was one of the skills he was proud of. "Like that. Want to try the next one?" he asked, holding the remote out to her.

He wanted to pull her over and settle her sitting between his legs, against his chest, but he wasn't sure if it would be appropriate. Plus it might also wind up depressing him, which was not what he wanted.



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[info]petra_firma
2011-04-30 03:48 am UTC (link)
Petra had started off on the couch, leaning forward with her elbows on her knees as she concentrated on both listening to Jared and watching the screen. Eventually she slid down to the floor, leaning against him as she watched the controller, noting which buttons did what.

She nodded and smiled when Jared asked if she wanted it try it. "It's looks fun," Petra said as she took the controller and started the next puzzle.

It was almost comical the way she played, biting her lip as she concentrated, moving her body and the controller as she tried to get her character through the chambers. "Why is it doing what I tell it to do and not what I WANT it to do?" she muttered as she had to retry one particularly sticky spot several times. "Games should be able to read my mind."

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[info]protective_seal
2011-04-30 04:18 am UTC (link)
Jared watched her with a broad smile on his face. It was like he had told Adrian. It wasn't something he could really put words to, but he liked the way Petra looked sitting there, playing the game. He just liked the way she was mimicking the character movements as she tried to work through the puzzle. It was just so Petra.

"The controls aren't the best. You just have to learn how to finesse them. It just takes time. You're doing really good."

At the idea of games reading minds, he frowned. "I don't think that would be a good thing, Pet. Then they might do all kinds of crazy shit, eh?"

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[info]petra_firma
2011-04-30 11:13 pm UTC (link)
"Yeah, defi- YES! HA!" she shouted rising to her knees and pumping her fist in the air as she finished the level. "I am awesome! Wooo!" Petra cheered, half falling onto Jared and wrapping her arms around his neck. "I love this game, it's awesome," she said more quietly, face inches away from his.

Petra's breath hitched slightly as she realized how close her lips were to Jared's. God, she'd love to kiss him. Love to be able to kiss him and have him kiss her back. Damn it.

Instead she just leaned in to press her forehead against his with a soft sigh. "Thank you for showing me how to play," she whispered.

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-01 12:13 am UTC (link)
Jared grinned broadly at Petra's reaction and, then, well, she was practically in his lap. Actually that was all the invitation that he needed as he shifted her fully into his lap. She was really, really close.

And Jared was silently damning the fact that he had powers at all because really. Sucked.

He would have kissed her. If he could. Properly anyway.

"Any time, Pet," he said softly and then gave her a quick peck. It was more for her benefit than his and, like always, was very very soft, barely there at all since he couldn't judge pressure.

"So, um, want to keep playing or..." Or what, dummy? Making out would have been the normal end to that sentence, but he was stuck in his goddamn bubble.

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-01 12:31 am UTC (link)
Petra appreciated Jared's effort more than he knew, but somehow it made her even more aware that they couldn't actually DO anything. And for the first time in her live she REALLY wanted to.

She sighed again, but smiled as she spoke. "What I really want to do is take you back to my room and make out for an hour," she said quietly, for once not blushing at all. "Or, um, you know, more than that. So, uh, consider that incentive? Soon as you get this shield down," Petra tapped Jared's nose, knowing she was just tapping the shield anyway. "You and I are SO having sex. And cookies. Probably in that order, if that's okay with you."

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-01 01:20 am UTC (link)
Okay. That was not fair at all. It was awesome and great to hear, but not fair. Jared closed his eyes and groaned. "That's not funny. We have no idea how long I'm going to be stuck in my fucking shield."

He sighed and shifted away a little. "You might be better off with something closer to a normal boyfriend."

"Not that I argue with that plan. But." It could be years. He could be in the field until he died.

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-01 02:44 am UTC (link)
"Sorry, babe," Petra said with a small smile, shifting right back to his lap. "Who's to say what normal is anyway? Besides, I don't like any of the other boys. And I've NEVER wanted to have sex before, so there!" she added, as if that settled everything.

"I have faith that you'll figure it out sooner rather than later," she continued, only now sliding off his lap. "I guess this means we're, like, officially dating, huh?" she asked, NOW blushing and looking down as she took Jared's hands in hers. "I'd kind of wondered but I didn't know how to ask."

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-01 05:06 am UTC (link)
Jared sighed again and tried not to look upset. He certainly wasn't upset at her. He was just really really frustrated with the whole situation and with his stupid fucking powers.

"In this case someone who can actually touch you is what I was referring to as normal," he said with a grimace. Yeah. Trying not to feel sorry for himself wasn't working out very well.

He was disappointed and a little relieved when she got out of his lap. It had been bittersweet really.

"Oh. Well. Shit. Yeah. I wasn't really sure what to do there. I mean, do you want to date me? That's probably the best thing to do, huh? Actually ask rather than just assume that you're my girlfriend." He squeezed her hands lightly. "Not that I've been like spreading shit about us dating or you being my girlfriend or anything but."

"Well. Petra. Do you want to be my girlfriend?"

He sounded like a complete fucking spaz.

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-01 07:27 am UTC (link)
Petra didn't answer right away, just leaned in and kissed his cheek. "Yes, I'd like that very much," she finally said, sitting back on her heels and looking at him.

"Jared, you'll get this, you will," Petra added, tapping the shield over his leg. "I mean, we've got the best of the best trainers here, right? And you've got added incentive," she said with a grin. "Not like you didn't before but..." she shrugged. "You'll figure it out. I know you will. And until then, well, I'm not- It doesn't upset me. That we can't, you know, do stuff. I want to, Lord knows I want to," she huffed, sounding impatient for the first time since he'd met her.

"But until you DO get on top of this thing, I'm happy just being around you. I'm a little worried you'll get bored with me," she admitted, looking away. "I'm not really interesting or anything and I don't know how to do a lot of the things you like to do like skateboarding and stuff. But if you can deal with that, I can deal with the shield."

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-01 02:55 pm UTC (link)
He grinned although part of him was still really bummed and mad. He was mostly mad at himself, and his goddamn powers. But he was also mad at his stepfather. It had been his fault he was stuck in the bubble. It had been his goddamn fault that Jared's power flared up in such a shitty way.

He reached out and took Petra's chin in his hand to guide her glance back to him. "You're not boring. You're interesting and fun and sweet. And you don't think I'm as much of an asshole as I am. And you don't care about the fucking shield. Well, okay, you don't care about it enough to tell me to get lost, which is the way that most people react to it."

"Let's be honest. I don't want you getting into most of the shit I do. It would hurt normal people. I only do half of it cause I know it can't hurt me. I wouldn't want Adrian doing it, and I wouldn't want you doing it."

He smiled. "Other than skateboarding. I'll teach you that. If you want, eh?"

"As for the shield, well, trauma caused it maybe trauma will make it go away." Which was another reason why Jared had never minded tossing himself off a cliff every now and then. It was thrilling, and it might have some positive circumstances. Well. Potentially negative ones, too, but he had never thought that far.

"So. Girlfriend, huh? Sweet."

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-01 08:36 pm UTC (link)
Now that he'd mentioned it, Petra realized that neither of them had actually ever said anything to the other about how they'd manifested. She hardly ever talked about it in general and she was pretty sure Kevin was the only person she'd actually straight out told what had happened when her powers showed up. Based on what he'd just said though, Petra was willing to bet Jared's manifestation was as bad as hers, maybe worse given his powers.

"I'd love to learn how to skateboard," Petra answered, shifting until she was sitting next to him again. "And, yeah, pretty sweet," she agreed, grinning and kissing him on the cheek again. "I've never had a boyfriend. Not really. There was Ivan, back in San Francisco, but we were faking. And I don't think Alan in third grade counts."

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-02 01:44 am UTC (link)
Jared didn't really ask or tell stories about power manifestations. He had talked about his a bit. Mostly just to mention to people that it had happened when he was young. Sometimes he even told people what had caused it but most of the time he was quiet on the matter. Talking about it too much usually just served to piss him off.

When she settled back down next to him, he hooked an arm around her waist. "Nah. Nothing under sixth grade counts, which is good because it makes my number smaller. Not that, y'know. None of them were serious," he said with a smile, the phrasing implying that the thing with Petra was way more serious. "I'll teach you to skateboard, Pet, but you have to wear all the silly safety gear."

"Um. Who is Ivan and why were you faking?"

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-02 03:59 am UTC (link)
"I will totally wear the safety gear and be very careful," Petra promised, crossing her heart solemnly. "And Ivan is...I think he has some type of amphibian power? He's, well, kind of, uh, slimy? And the people that didn't like me didn't like him either, only THEY didn't have boyfriends or girlfriends so Ivan and I pretended just to kind of shove their faces in it. But all we did was hold hands and kiss once. He's-" she started giggling. "He's, he's very, very gay. And he was only there a month anyway. His parents decided to move back to Latvia." She shrugged, handing the game controller to Jared. "He emails me sometimes. We helped each other through a rough spot, that's all. Nothing to be jealous of," Petra added with a grin.

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-02 01:10 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, Jared had been a little jealous, but the story helped. Although he didn't like hearing that there was someone out there who didn't like Petra because he couldn't imagine anyone in the world not liking Petra. What on earth was there not to like about her.

He frowned down at the controller. "Why didn't those assholes like you? What did they do? Is anyone here mean to you? Cause all you gotta do is tell me." And he would take care of it one way or another. Jared was extremely protection of people he cared about, and Petra had rocketed right on to that list.

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-02 11:59 pm UTC (link)
She was surprised a little at Jared's vehemence, but after a moment Petra realized she really shouldn't be. She'd seen him talk about Adrian and knew how protective he was of his little brother. She guessed that she was included in that now. Wow.

Again she leaned in to give Jared a kiss, cupping his cheek with one hand. No way was she going to not touch him just because he couldn't feel it. He was normal, damn it and she wouldn't treat him any differently.

"It's good here, babe. Honest. I don't know what happened in California- maybe it was just the wrong me at the wrong time. I didn't get along with almost everyone. Kevin was my only constant friend. And, just mentioning this here, but I couldn't touch him at all. No one can. So this?" she stroked her thumb across his cheekbone. "Not a big deal. We'll work around it until you get it down. And you will. I know it."

Maybe that kind of faith was silly, but it was pure Petra. She refused to believe Jared wouldn't get control of his shield, just like she refused to believe he was a 'bad guy'.

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-03 03:24 am UTC (link)
Jared had never considered himself a good or a bad guy, but he knew what a lot of people thought.

"I don't think there's such a thing as a wrong you, Pet." He took her hand with his free one, the other arm still curled around her waist. "I always wanted the damn thing down. I mean, not always but. I always wanted to be able to control it."

He took a breath. "Being around all these untouchable guys. That could give less amazing girls a bit of a complex."

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-03 03:54 am UTC (link)
Petra just smiled. "Nah. Not that I'm agreeing with the amazing part, mind you. I think you're the only one who thinks THAT," she said with a laugh. "But, no, no complex I know of. I just happen to like you a lot and think you're great. It's not like I thought, hey, what other guy here can't I touch, lets go out with him," she joked, sliding her arm around Jared's neck and laying her head on his shoulder.

"I like you," she said quietly. "I'm attracted to you. I know you think you're, um, not smart. I disagree and I'm going to try to make you see all the good stuff I see about you. And you don't think I'm a dork or anything for all the old-fashioned stuff I like to do." Petra shrugged, taking a breath and relaxing against Jared. "We seem to be pretty good for each other so far and I'm really happy I get to be your girlfriend."

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-03 01:11 pm UTC (link)
Jared shook his head. "I'm sure there are other people who think you're amazing. Maybe not in the same way I do, though. Wouldn't really want that. But I'm sure your friends do,"

The joke had made him laugh, though he got quieter and more serious when she curled into him more. Sometimes he could pretend better than others. Sometimes he could imagine body heat and the slight pressure of other people. And sometimes he simply felt cold and trapped.

He was doing a good job of pretending at the moment. It was almost like being normal.

"I'm really happy that you're my girlfriend, and that I'm your boyfriend. `Sides, Pet, I think it's enough that you don't think all the bad things about me. You get to think I'm, I don't know, not a moron, and I'll think you're not a dork all day long."

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-03 09:31 pm UTC (link)
She chuckled, giving Jared a tight squeeze before sitting back. "Does it bother you that I do that? Touch you, I mean. I know you can't feel it but...I don't know, I don't want to get out of the habit. I'm a touchy-feely sort of person, I guess, but I don't want you to be uncomfortable or something." Petra looked concerned, but hadn't moved so far away that she wasn't still touching Jared. Or rather, his shield. She preferred not to think about it that way though.

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-04 03:03 am UTC (link)
He pulled her closer. "No way, Pet. If anything I prefer it. I mean, I can't feel it and sometimes it upsets me a little, but it also helps some. It's weird. The counselors says that it's important for me to do normal things. Not just for others but for me as well. Apparently I start to get isolated and moody when I don't."

"So, please, keep touching. One day I'll feel it." Hopefully.

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-04 03:44 am UTC (link)
"I won't stop then. Which is good because I like touching you," Petra replied, wrapping her arms around Jared and smiling. "My counselor told me the same thing, after my family died. That's part of the reason I knit so much, I think. My mom taught me when I was really little, and her mom knitted and HER mom did too all the way back as far as we know. So, it's like, as long as I keep doing it, I keep a bit of them alive in me. That's way corny, I know, but it's true," she finished, honest as always.

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-04 01:00 pm UTC (link)
Jared frowned not at the story but about the part where Petra had said her family died. Had he known that? Was that something he should have heard when she was talking but he had been busy just staring at her because she was so pretty?

It was possible.

Hadn't there been a bit of a rumor about something along those lines? Had he been listening then?

Finally he just decided to bite the bullet. "Okay. This might be awful, and I'm sorry, but did you tell me about your family before because it's not ringing bells? I mean, I'm sorry they're dead obviously but..." he would stop himself before he made this terrible.

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-04 11:45 pm UTC (link)
"Oh! Oh no," Petra exclaimed, sitting back and clapping a hand over her mouth. "I'm so sorry, I've never just blurted it out like that," she whispered, shocked and embarrassed by her slip up. "I know I've never told you," Petra continued, shaking her head. "I mean, I might have said something about them not being around but that's WAY different than just- I'm so sorry, Jared," she apologized, absolutely mortified.

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-05 04:56 am UTC (link)
Okay. Well. Good. At least he hadn't missed something important.

"Um. Well. Actually." He paused and then wrapped both his arms around her. "I'm sorry about your family. It's okay. I can understand why you wouldn't be talking to people about that all the time."

"I'm sorry."

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-05 08:08 pm UTC (link)
Petra, in turn, wrapped her arms around Jared. She wasn't crying but she was obviously tense at first. Gradually she relaxed, taking a few deep, cleansing breaths.

"Thank you," Petra said quietly. "My shrink also said I don't have a lot of patience for myself." She snorted; a totally un-Petralike sound. "I guess I spend it on everyone else. But I keep thinking 'I should be over this. It's been a year.' But it's something I might never be OVER over." Petra shrugged and sighed. "Thank you, though. It means a lot to me that you care."

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-05 08:19 pm UTC (link)
Jared was really really glad that she wasn't crying. He was not good at comforting crying girls. He wasn't really sure what to do with them other than just, like, be there, which wasn't always the best thing ever.

"Of course I care. You're my girlfriend. If I didn't care, I'd have to beat myself up." Which would have been ridiculous. "And I don't think that's the sort of thing that anyone gets over."

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-05 10:45 pm UTC (link)
She nodded against his shoulder. For all that he professed to be dumb, Jared seemed to be pretty insightful at times.

"Just so you know," Petra began, tilting her head up to look at Jared. "This?" she let go momentarily to pat his arm within his field of vision. "Is absolutely perfect. Just tight enough so I know I'm safe here. With you. So," and now she grinned. "Bookmark it. So next time you want to hold me, you won't have to worry," Petra teased gently.

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-05 11:48 pm UTC (link)
"Oh. Uh." He frowned a bit. "I'll try, but it's hard to gauge." In truth he hadn't actually be thinking about the shield or worrying about holding her too tight.

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-06 01:36 am UTC (link)
Petra rolled her eyes. "I'm kidding, babe. Although...maybe not thinking about it isn't that bad?" she suggested. "I mean, obviously, you got it right this time and you weren't thinking about it. Maybe...hm. Could you be over-analyzing? Always worrying about it has GOT to be stressful, right? Maybe, maybe you just need to relax?"

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-06 04:03 am UTC (link)
Jared sighed and nodded. "My counselor says that too. That I should stop thinking so much about it because most people are going to tell me before I hurt them. But." He pulled away from her enough to run a hand through his hair. "I've accidentally hurt people before because I wasn't being careful."

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-06 04:21 am UTC (link)
"But that was an accident," Petra pointed out. "I certainly wouldn't be mad at you if you hurt me accidentally. I know you'd be more than mad enough at yourself, but still. Accidents happen." It was funny how firmly Petra believed that. Accidents were accidents. And yet, she still couldn't forgive herself for the death of her family.

Petra sighed. "But anyway, it's okay, Jared. I understand. And I promise I'll always tell you before you even come close to hurting me, okay?"

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-06 04:25 am UTC (link)
"Well. I mean. Some of them I was trying to punch the snot out of, but I went overboard without meaning to so. Yeah. Accidents."

He grinned at her and leaned back in to press his field covered lips against her cheek. "That's a deal I'm holding you to, Pet."

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[info]petra_firma
2011-05-06 05:09 am UTC (link)
"You? Get in a fight? I am SHOCKED and APPALLED!" Petra gasped, trying not to laugh as well. "Or I would be if I was, you know, blind and deaf and, like, not dating you and so on." she joked, patting Jared on the cheek.

"And I like you holding me to that deal. I like you holding me in general," she finished with a happy sigh, laying her head on Jared's shoulder.

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[info]protective_seal
2011-05-06 05:42 am UTC (link)
That did make Jared laugh. "Yeah. Well. Not so many since coming here. I'm trying to get on good behavior so I don't get shipped back to Canada."

He pulled her closer. "I do, too." And then he stopped himself before he said anything else. Like how he wished he could feel her because they'd been over that. It would come in time. He hoped. Petra seemed convinced, but Jared wasn't there yet.

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