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Is this place still alive?
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[24 Nov 2006|10:25am] |
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what do you do when you're no good for people ... when you've become poison to those who love you because you've turned into something else? when who you love hurt you without mercy making you into this hateful create that only seeks revenge and nothing else. A creature that doesn't care who you are as long as someone pays. And all you really want is to be hold by someone who will not hurt you....
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I love all of you. :) Woot.
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[15 Apr 2006|10:00am] |
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Is anyone still here? If so, say something! LOL.
What was the hardest thing you ever had to tell someone?
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I wanted to share with all of you that I joined a sorority 3 weeks ago. I really thought they were for snobs and such, but that isn't true. I've learned so much and we do a lot of community service. I'm so glad I did join though, I'm not so anti-social anymore, so that's a plus. I'm working on it though. :)
If you have a chance, try to join one. :)
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[04 Feb 2006|10:24am] |
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Hey guys. I had a long talk with my mom yesterday about some things in my life and I've come to realize that some things need changed, and if they don't, I'll have to come across a few hard decisions later on.
I'm just worried... :(
♥ Bri
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[11 Jan 2006|02:32pm] |
hi everyone .. im new .. call me alice :)
id love to hear peoples feedback on a situation i have recently found myself in ..
this coming friday was supposed to be my wedding day .. yes, i was engaged to be married to (wonderful?) man, whom had been living with myself and my daughter for the past four or five months .. he was wonderfully supportive and thoughtful .. taking care of me and responsibility for my daughter when i was unwell, either physically or mentally .. he would help with the house cleaning and cooking .. work in the garden and got on great with my daughter and our friends .. he told me he was financially independant and together we put an offer on a property (paddock) next door to my house ..
sounds like a fairy tale now doesnt it - it was .. ALL just a tale !!
so how did the compulsive liar get busted .. well ill tell you, i caught him out myself ..
from the time he moved in things that were supposed to appear never did .. from furniture that the movers had supposedly 'lost' .. there were stories of awol drivers, court seizures and then 'too much emotional baggage' connected with it so i was told it was being put into storage .. his dog that i was told a friend was looking after was never brought over when i was told it was due to arrive, they were either down south (taken the dog with them) or too busy at work to meet us at their house .. his ex partner was supposedly trying to stop him seeing his daughter, and as well as arrangments being changed approximately eight times in a month, i sat across from him at the table while he again 'supposedly' fought with the ex on the phone .. next there was engagement rings that were ordered but never appeared .. and worst of all he told my daughter that he had bought her a horse .. we have since found out the horse we had been visiting daily infact belonged to someone else !
while i wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt, it seemed like just nothing was adding up, and we constantly fought because as i would say "ive seem no eveidence of your life before we met" .. he would get offended or sulk or cry and tell me i was 'pushing him to deal with things he just wasnt able to deal with' .. i would feel terrible and so drop it until the next time that i just couldnt hold my thoughts/tounge ..
well it all came undone for him when i checked my phone bill .. and there were NO numbers i didnt know !!
even confronted with this information, i was told that he "put them on the credit card" .. i wasnt convinced .. so i started ringing around places like the movers, the jewelers, and visited the people whom the horse was supposedly in care of .. NO-ONE knew who the hell he was ..
EVEN THEN when i confronted him with this information, he denied lieing to me/us .. he even took money off my daughters friend (a 14 yr old) to buy her a cell phone (which of course never appeared) .. i found out he had taken my card and taken money out of my account (i live on a benefit & need every cent i get!) .. i told him to pack his bag and "get out" .. i locked the doors, pulled the curtains and put everything he owned out the door ..
safe in our home my daughter and i talked, cried and tried to find comfort in the distraction of the tv .. i had her settled when he an hour later knocked on the door .. i looked out a bedroom window to check who it was (him of course) and i noticed the open bottle of pills in his hand .. he told me he "needed to lie down somewhere" .. i told him to "lie in his car" .. i asked him how many of the pills he had taken and he told me "all that were in the container" .. im thinking around 20 lorazapam - he had taken an overdose ..
i rang my support worker, the police and the mental health team .. i checked he was breathing (he had taken himself back to the car and locked all the doors, but i was able to get in through the hatch .. it was only after the dr arrived that i checked my own drug supply and realized he had also taken some meds of mine ..
he rang me the next day from the hospital .. asking me to 'come take him home' .. i again told him all the information i had, that he had lied to, me about everything and that this was NOT his home .. i had by this point also tracked down and spoken to his ex partner, informing her of the overdose to the response of "what the hells that got to do with me?" .. i told her i was just informing her because i had been told that we would be having two of the children saty with us .. she tells me "their not even his kids" .. ive since met her and been told loads more about this man .. his emotional abuse and the compulsiveness of his lies ..
the dog doesnt exist, the house doesnt exist, the furniture doesnt exist, the daughter isnt even his .. the phone call made to the children in front of me on christmas morning - he sat there for over half an hour and cried when he got off the phone (with me comforting him) - was BULLSHIT .. the children werent even at her house on christmas morning, but down south with their father ..
not only did i have the rug pulled out from under my world, i had to tell all my friends whom had similarly been lied to and ripped of by this man ..
DARRYL BRUCE SMITH from (new zealand) = con man, compulsive liar, asshole
so now im wondering what lessons are to be learned from this experience, as well as where i go on from here (we had planned on having a child and i was to stay at home) .. id love to hear feedback on this situation, and also if anyone has similar experiences to share (so i dont feel so naive and alone) ..
also looking for new friends .. so please feel free to check out my ij and drop me a line (im new so there is only a few posts, but i promise ill be writing regularly)
thanks for your time ;-)
~ Alice
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[08 Dec 2005|06:37pm] |
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Hello,
Been a member of IJ since July 1, 2005. I was planning on just using this journal as a griefing one. However, I'm slowly starting to join asylums. We've had a lot of upset in our family this past year or so. Gloria, my husband's eldest sister past away in March of 2004. She and I were extremely close and I just can't get over her death. Then in November of 2005, Val another sister of my husbands died. We're trying to be positive but it's hard sometimes. I've been on anti-depressants adviced by my doc, and it's helping a bit. I've also been to a bereavement support councelling group. Any other suggestions to get through this?
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MY SITE IS FINALLY UPDATED AND REDESIGNED!
http://www.flawedemotions.com/
^ GO THERE... PLEASE!
(Still adding little things-expect to see the guestbook back up and a counter up soon.)
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[27 Nov 2005|01:28pm] |
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How was everyone's Thanksgiving?
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[04 Nov 2005|11:44am] |
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I am sick and had this darn cold since Sunday night and I've been taking medicine, using vapor-rub, AND eating/drinking a lot of Vitamin C. Any other ideas? :-\
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How can I choose one over the other? I already have but I know I'll lose Aiden as my friend and I've only just found him again. How could I have hurt someone so sweet and kind and dear to me... the pain he doesn't know yet, but I'll have to tell him soon. I can't keep it from him, it's not right at all. I.. I just don't know how to tell him.. someone help me figure this out..
~Broken Mentality
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Hey guys!
My back has really been hurting me. (It's my muscles)
I work out 3x a week now, but that doesn't seem to help.
Any suggestions for someone with chronic muscle pain?
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This community needed a little updating
Anyways
I want to thank ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) paintedsoulfor creating this community to help people out..
And of course also everyone who joined this community =)
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how can you stop the same person from tearing out your heart multiple times... I would really like to know how to stop the aching in my heart. I would really like to know how to stop from caring about travis. I would like to forget him... every time he ignores me it stabs me at the heart.
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[29 Sep 2005|02:19am] |
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Guess what?
( Solution. )
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What do you do when you are just breathing and not really living? When you are just doing things for no reason? Can anyone help me to see the meaning to life again? I want to feel like i'm living for something important or at least living. I smile all the time when i'm around people but i want to smile also when i'm home alone. I don't want to live a lifeless life... a pointless existence... I help all those i can but i wonder if that is enough to make a change. That is my only reason right now ...... the only thing that makes sense
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I feel like poop. What should I do for the weekend to have fun?
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