It wasn't like Zeke hadn't thought of breaking everything off. More than once. Especially after the Dhani thing, but... it was just that he knew he couldn't. He could want too, they could fight, they could not speak for long periods of time, and Zeke could make threats, kick Zeph out of them band, and what not... and even after that, Zeke knew he'd somehow find the other guy and they'd get together again and again, and break apart again and again, even if he did.
Zeke wasn't going to take too much pf it before he found something else to take his mind off of Zeph too though. That sort of thing. Because fuck if he was going to be faithful to someone who wasn't.
So yeah, he'd wanted this, well, if he had admitted it, but he'd never really expected it, so it was such a shock to his system, his mind reeling still, not fully taking it in as he revealed in Zeph's touch.