Anna's tears were far from unshed, them running down her cheeks what with all the frustration and anger because of all of this. If Evan was here they wouldn't have to decide this, and if Evan was here they wouldn't have ever needed to wonder how he'd be feeling towards certain things. The more she thought about it the more anger towards him arose and then she felt guilt for being angry at someone that had passed away four years ago.
"But...But what if we figure this out and it's not what we want it to be? What are we going to do then?" Anna couldn't hide how worried she was about this, "Theres no way you can't be in mine or Ryder's life and there isn't anyway I can stop feeling like this." There were more tears now as she was rambling on, "Dammit. This isn't fair. Him leaving us like this isn't fair. We shouldn't have to second guess ourselves because he decided to up and leave us like this."
A chair wasn't too far behind her so she leaned against the back, using it as leverage to keep her up. Every now and again even the smallest bit of crying could drain you when it was filled with emotions like hers. "I need you Harry. Ryder needs you." Not Evan. She thought silently to herself, instantly feeling guilty the moment it was thought even if it was true. "So we have to make this work." Because it was all they had.