Who: Mora and Edward When: After classes Where: By the loch What: R? Why: Language
Morag had had a sub-par day. Granted, all her days were the same. Still... she'd been forced to mind herself since she already had detention for hexing someone. Every time someone brushed against her in the halls these days it took every ounce of self-control not to hurt them. School this year just... grated...on her every nerve. And with her Gran's frequent owls urging her to be someone she would never be... life had simply hit a low point.
And then... and then she'd gotten an owl at breakfast from her Gran saying that if she didn't cooperate with the Urquharts soon she'd be disowned and lose her inheritance, her family (what was left of it) and everything else and be left on her own to fend for herself. She'd skipped all of her classes and spent most of her day in her room trying not to think about it. Unfortunately the more she tried NOT to think about it...the more she did. She needed to get away. And so, after classes were out and she'd not be questioned for being outside, she'd headed to a secluded bit of the lake where she could be alone with her thoughts and her cigarettes.
How could her Grandmother just... abandon... her like that? Like her parents and everyone she'd ever cared about had done? Just because she didn't want to marry someone...? Then again...she supposed she should have seen it coming. Everyone did this to her. But it didn't stop her feeling hurt and betrayed. She was shaking with her emotions and began lobbing stones at the squid for lack of anything better, muttering to herself.
"Fuckin' everyone in me fuckin' life fuckin' uses me an' leaves. No one fuckin' cares. How can she fuckin' jist...abandon me...because I won' fuckin' do whae she says! Jist because I don' wanna marry someone... why would I fuckin' do tha'!? Naeone likes me. Naeone can be trusted. Everyone wants ta fuckin' change me...an' jist because I won'...jist because I don' want ta be tied doon ta someone who doesnae wan' me...doesnae understan'... I'm worthless. Fuck her! Fuck everyone! Whae wis th' fuckin' point ay huvin' me if I'm so fuckin' worthless an' unfuckin'lovable...Fuck them awl! I'd rather be fuckin' homeless."