"Because" he sighed rubbing his neck "I know she can do far better than me. So-" he shrugged "-I'm happy to love from afar." He smiled softly, thinking of her face. "I'm lucky I get to see her so often. To live in the same ship. If she knew it was me, she might kick me off the ship when she gets rid of the survivors" he said softly. "If she works out it's me......." he looked almost scared, but he hid it well