_fearthereaper (_fearthereaper) wrote in supernextdoor, @ 2012-03-06 20:31:00 |
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Entry tags: | 09.28.11, aidan, aidan and danielle, danielle |
Apologies
Who: Aidan and Danielle
What: Apologies
When: Wednesday evening
Where: Their home
Warnings: None really
Aidan had felt like a jackass the whole rest of the day. He'd had to work after lunch so he hadn't really gotten to say much of anything to Danielle. The time away from her had him thinking about how much of a douche he'd been. By the time he got home that night, he'd already stopped at a florist and a restaurant to get Ribs and mashed potatoes, Danielle's favorite and a DVD box set of Xena. He hoped that it was still one of her favorite shows. He opened the door and sat the food on the table and then took the flowers to the counter and pulled the little card that was currently empty off so he could write in it. Roses are red, violets are blue. I'm sorry I was such an inconsiderate douche to you. That fit better than any Halmark he'd found. He sighed and tucked the card back in amidst the flowers and picked them up again, carrying the vase into the bedroom where he figured Danielle was. He knocked lightly on the door. "Danielle, sweetheart, are you in there?"
Dani had blown off work that night. She had called Mercy and told them she was sick and couldn't make it in. Of course, being already dead she doubted she could actually get sick, but she just couldn't handle the club. Not after lunch. Aidan had gone back to his own job and she had found a gym and spent her afternoon beating the crap out of anyone stupid enough to get in the ring with her. She ended up making 500 bucks in bets too. She figured that covered calling out.
Currently she was in the bedroom, watching a movie and drinking a beer. She had drank quite a few and was barely getting a buzz, which was also annoying her. she had found she needed to drink a lot more to feel anything. Being dead sucked. Her eyes flicked to the door when Aidan knocked and she sighed. "Yea." she said, taking another long swig of her beer.
She still sounded pissed and he closed his eyes in preparation as he took a deep breath and let it out slowly. He made his way into the bedroom and sat the flowers on the side table. "I'm sorry." he told her, because that was the most important thing for him to say at that moment. Sitting on the edge of the bed, his eyes flicked to hers and he waited for a moment before speaking again. "I didn't have any right to bring up our personal business with Faye this afternoon." he told her. "And I shouldn't have said anything. If anything I should have to spend the rest of my life telling you how sorry I am for what I did to you."
"Do you really think that I don't feel guilty for you being a reaper? I regret my decision everyday, Danielle, but I didn't really have much of a choice. I'm forbidden to speak of what I am to anyone but other reapers and when I met you... I fell in love with you and I wanted so badly to tell you everything about myself, wanted to let you in, but either way you'd have lost me in the end. Speaking of what I am would have only been a surefire way to be ripped from my duties and plunged into whatever afterlife there is for me. I'm not saying that my decision was correct, but I had my reasons. That doesn't mean that I loved you any less or that I worried for you any less or that I didn't regret every second I spent away from you. Even more when I saw you again." His stomach felt queasy in that moment and he thought he might throw up or cry uncontrollably if he continued down this route. So he closed his mouth and let his eyes flick to the floor. "I'm sorry. That's all I can tell you."
Dani listened to his speech and of course she understood why he did what he did. She wasn't an idiot. There had been no easy way for it to end. He had no idea just how badly she would of reacted to it. It had to have been harder for him than for her. "Maybe I've been looking at this all wrong." she said slowly. "Yes, we're dead, it sucks, you had to do a shitty thing....But...We're together now which is what I wanted. So...either way I guess it worked out?" Dani felt guilty for making him feel so bad. She was being selfish and she shouldn't of been.
He shook his head. "I never wanted this for you, Dani." he told her as he reluctantly looked over at her again. "I never wanted you to shoulder this sort of burden. It was bad enough not to be able to tell you about it when you were still living, but to know - or at least to feel - that I'm responsible for your death makes me wish that I'd just told you back then." He'd easily give up whatever life he was living to keep her from having such a fate.
"Ok, Aidan? If you do recall some asshole shoved me in front of a subway train. How is that your fault?" She set down her beer and shifted on the bed to she could sit in front of him. "Don't blame yourself for this. If anyone, blame our douche boss."
"Because I left." he told her simply. "If I'd never left, you wouldn't have been there at that exact moment. You'd have never been there to be pushed. You'd be safe. Alive." Sure, Death was the asshole that had set all of this in motion, but it had been Aidan's choice to leave, not his.
"Here's an idea...How about we just not think about it anymore?" she suggested. "We're together now, it is what it is, and honestly, being this pissed off and emo is fucking exhausting." she said, giving him that crooked smile of hers.
Aidan sighed. He couldn't promise that he wouldn't think about it anymore because it was usually at the forefront of his mind, but he nodded a little, at least at the latter half of her statement. "I am sorry though." he told her once more. "About lunch. I didn't want that meeting to go the way that it did and I truly didn't mean to hurt your feelings."
She leaned over to give him a soft kiss. "I accept your apology....Now, do I smell ribs?" she asked with a wide grin. "Cause if there's ribs, we should be eating them and not lamenting over shit we can't change."
"You do." he told her with a little chuckle. "I came bearing anything I could remember that you loved. Ribs and mashed potatoes and a box set of Xena. So forgive me?" he murmured before stealing another kiss.
Dani smiled against his lips as he stole another kiss. "Always. Now feed me." she said with a giggle.
Well he wasn't going to argue with her now that she'd forgiven him. So he led her back into the kitchen where their food was sitting on the counter. "I'll try not to be so inconsiderate of your feelings from now on." he told her as he made them both a plate and sat hers on the table before settling with his own beside her.
Dani flopped down at the table with her beer, licking her lips at the smell of dinner. "Shhhh, no more apologizing. Just eat." she aid as she herself dug in. She was actually pretty starving. She forgot to eat a lot lately and with the huge workout she had put herself through, she needed the food.
"Okay, okay." he said, holding his hands up in defeat with a bright smile. He paid attention more to dinner than anything else as they ate and it didn't take long for the both of them to scarf down their food. Aidan thought ribs were pretty spectacular after all. Maybe she had even better taste than he'd thought. "That was good." he murmured.
She leaned back in her seat when she was done, taking one last swig of her beer. "Not bad, I must say. You'll have to take me to where you got them sometime so I can try their other stuff." Dani was a bit of a fanatic when it came to all things barbecue.
"I can do that." he told her with a nod. It would give him an excuse to take her out. Not that he really needed reasons to take her out, he liked just doing it for no reason at all. "So, what would you like to do now?"
Dani shrugged as she got up from the table and put their empty plates in the sink. "I dunno. Movie or something?" she suggested, not really wanting to do all that much. "Maybe just curl up together?"
Aidan didn't care if they watched a movie or not. They probably wouldn't watch the damn thing anyway and curling up sounded pretty damn good to him. "I vote curling up together." he told her as he washed his hands once she was finished setting the plates in the sink. "Bedroom or sofa?"
"Bedroom." she said automatically. If they were going to cuddle, it made more sense to do so in the more comfortable bed than the couch. After a quick wash of her hand Dani went into the bedroom, going into the dresser to pull out a long t-shirt to sleep in.
He followed after her to the bedroom and began to get ready for bed - and a good cuddle before hand. His shoes and socks were the first to go, then his shirt and tie and pants went into the hamper before he crawled into the bed and let out a sigh. Even to someone technically not living, it felt damn good to lie down after a long day of work.
Dani undressed herself, slipping the t-shirt over her head and crawling into bed beside Aidan with a groan. "How much did you spend on this bed? It's the most comfortable thing I have ever laid on." Their old bed had been a bit lumpy, but it was theirs. She missed that, things being theirs. Dani still felt like this was his house and she was just a guest.
"A lot." he told her honestly. He was a doctor so he could afford it. "Sleep is about the only thing that I got to enjoy before you appeared again." he explained. "Figured I might as well be comfortable. And now I'm more than comfortable because you're here with me in this bed." he murmured, shifting enough to get close to her. He draped his arm across her middle and let out a little sigh. "I missed you something awful." he told her. "Course that's true of every second I'm not with you."
She smiled softly and snuggled against him happily. "I miss you too..." she said softly. Dani had missed him so much she couldn't live without him. Now she was dead, but she had Aidan and that really was the important part. Everything else was secondary. She could deal with being dead and being a reaper. So long as she had Aidan, she could handle anything.