"Because I didn't have a clue what I was doing. I was young, and I was scared out of my mind, and I was afraid that you would hate me." Her volume was rising, and she took a deep breath, leaning forward and resting her head in her hands. Exhaling a heavy breath, she sniffed, trying not to cry.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I don't know if saying it more will make you believe me more, but it's true. I swear."
She sat up, leaning back against the cushions and looking at him helplessly.