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The fact that it bothers you is proof that you are not a monster and I'm sorry that you've been made to feel that way by your family.
On a lesser scale, I do understand. My older sister thought for so long that I was useless and feather-brained that after awhile, I started believing that, too.
It's nice to meet you, Klaus... may I call you Klaus or do you prefer Mr. Mikaelson from people you don't know well?