Narrative
[Carson's been walking around like a zombie since her punishment began.
Last night Katherine slipped into her bedroom and covered her mouth. She told her not to make a sound. She didn't, she heard her out and something that she said made Carson feel a certain way. She always hated Katherine, she was the heartless lying manipulative bitch that broke Damon's heart 150 years ago then came back and used him then discarded him. She's the same as the Katherine Mason's a fool for. She's over Damon now, but she couldn't shake the feeling that Katherine was out to save her own hide.
She sat Carson down and told her that the Mikaelsons were bad news, that she warned Damon but that he didn't take it seriously. Katherine told him they might kill Carson if he didn't reel her in and he didn't, then he sent her alone to apologize. Katherine admit that she was impressed that Carson walked away from that, the Mikaelsons don't show mercy. She should be dead right now. Katherine drove that point in, she told her that they were unstoppable and merciless. That they'd use her until she stopped being fun and then she'd face the same fate as Damon or worse. That she'll never be in. She also told her that this was her one chance to live a normal life. She has parents, siblings, and a clean slate. She urged her to walk away from this life.
But Carson's not sure what to do with that. She's heard the same things from Skye before. She told her she doesn't have to be a soldier anymore. Carson's not sure what to do if she's not a soldier. She's not sure she can just be a regular kid. She's 19 and she's done things nobody regular could stomach. She's shot her best friend in the head under orders, she stabbed the love of her life in the back and delivered him to the scariest people she ever met. It wasn't out of fear, it was out of habit. She's not a normal kid.
If rediscovering herself means facing the things she's done, she's not sure she wants to do it at all. She could never force herself to care about the things that Faye and Skye and Mandy care about. She's seen the other side and she knows that's where her skills lie. There's a choice to make. Live and die as a soldier or keep pretending she's meant to be here. She pulls out a piece of paper and writes to her family.
Dear Mom and Dad,
I'm sorry. I tried to fit here, but I don't belong. I didn't do it for Damon, I didn't do it for the Mikaelsons, and I didn't do it for Seth. I did it for myself. This is who I am.
I'll love you forever and protect you, but I can't do that here.
Carson
Images of the things she's done float through her head ending in Damon burning on the street. She did that, and she's not sorry. He's a casualty of war. She cleans her room and makes her bed, leaving the note in the middle of it then she speeds off to hide out at Cole's place.]
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