Re: Spam
[Her heartrate is off the chain right now, beating like a jungle drum. She's pretty sure the reason why he's upset is because she didn't trust him not to do it. He's offended, he's upset, he's mad at her. She's still crying and yelling when she starts speaking again, she backs herself into a wall]
I'm not letting anyone win, I'm standing my ground! I'm not hurt, am I? I'm not gonna run away every time I get scared something might happen or I'm the weak one and then the innocent person that I'm running from gets a reputation for nothing. I'm brave now, Sam. Little me used to run from everything, and news flash, when someone wants you there, they figure out how to make you stay. They don't just let people run out the fucking door. That's a fight I'd lose. Look at you.
And you don't get it 'cause you're a man but this shit happens and we have to figure out our own ways of dealing with it. Most girls might have left with Staz, but Staz wasn't leaving without Tom. I checked. Last night it was a choice between trusting you or trusting Tom and I picked you.
And of course I care about your reputation. There are people outside these doors who would gladly pull the trigger at a hint of an implication and I can't live with that. Not when the real bad guys just go undetected. My brothers, half brothers, cousins, neighbors, you name it, they all died because they were that kind and they died at the hands of some of the people outside these here doors. Because they got a reputation.
I like you, Sam, but I can't just wish away everything I've seen and heard and been through. I'm fucking damaged, okay? There's a side to me the fans don't see and it's not fucking pretty and it doesn't make sense. It was one night! It was one night! I didn't go to you, I stayed in the room! I just stayed up, it was a little thing I did! One little thing, how is that so bad that you're standing here like I did something wrong when all I did was just stay up!