no, this was going horribly, he couldn't leave like this, not so angry. He knew he should just apologize further and admit to having made a terrible mistake and then beg for forgiveness, but what actually escaped his lips was something completely different.
"what if I want to?" he asked, his voice clear in the still silence, the unnatural shadow around him went away and he sat there in the light, still biting his lower lip, eyes wide as they fixed on Nik.