John collapsed back onto the bed within Gilderoi's arms. He shivered and tried to stop that hopeful rise in his heart that something would change Gil from being polyamorous to monogamous. Even if it was just because Gil liked John enough to give it a try.
Gil's warm breath and his laugh made John's hopes rise higher. He looked at Gil when he paused, feeling that a lot was balanced in that hesitation. When it came out, John wanted to kick himself for hoping so much. He tried to keep the hurt out of his eyes and looked away. Suddenly they were way too close and too intimate.
John pushed up and sat again on the edge of the bed. He pulled his hair back and used an elastic band on his wrist to bind the long dark mane at the nape of his neck. "Thank you for being honest. And really, it's fine." The more John thought about it, the more fine with it he became. "It's better that we talked about it than let it fester, you know? And anyway..." John stood again. "I need to clean this up and go to Botany Club."