"And all of us knew the risks when we signed up for the job," Jake pointed out, just as he managed to push himself up a bit. That was annoyingly exhausting, though, and he slumped back into his pillow.
"I thought," he began, but had to break off to yawn. "Sorry. I thought I'd be able to change things. I did change things. I wouldn't get shot, Tommy wouldn't get killed, and maybe we'd both get to go to Pandora. Together. Guess I fucked that plan up, huh? I didn't change enough things." He laughed a little, even though it wasn't funny, and had to stop when it hurt his chest.