Steve | Darcy
Because I need to have something approaching normal when it comes to him. Because if I don't work for that normal, then I sit around and start thinking about how quickly he's obviously moving on... And that makes me think that he didn't mean it when he told me he loved me. And if he didn't mean it, then I wasted months and months doing my best to hold him together... just to be completely ignored more often than not. And then I start thinking about how he couldn't seem to make room in his life for me, but he can do it for someone else. And then I feel hurt and I don't want to be that girl.
He was a shitty boyfriend. I knew he would be because I watched him be a shitty boyfriend with Jane. But there was that little... naive spark of maybe.