Harley
No, but our house isn't that big, and my therapist taught me how to notice the signs in myself so I could get to a calm environment, so it wasn't hard to see them in you, too.
<3 If you start finding your brain going down that hole, just say, "Don't talk about Abbie's brother like that!" I sometimes have to say that to myself. Or, like, when I start thinking that no one likes me, and that people only pretend to want me around, I have to say, out loud, "Are you calling them a liar?!" I know it sounds crazy, but anxiety sucks and is hard and is always so freaking loud because it's our inner voice. If you need to talk to someone, I support it. I might need to find a doctor here, too, because it's been awhile since I've talked to anyone, and I'm trying to avoid too many more blowups.
I know you were. That doesn't change the fact that you shouldn't've had to. I love you, too, and I know you will. Me, too.