Hizzie
Being used to something doesn't make it good or okay, Hope. It just means you've grown numb to the sharp edges.
We don't all get to be you and have some magic special "him" who
I didn't mean a generic someone
You have a him. I have a Josie, when I'm not screwing everything up. That's what I meant. I get needing a specific person because they help.
It did work, okay? Malivore was gone. Everyone thought Landon was a hero because he was at the pit when it disappeared. And then you came back. And Clarke happened. And then Malivore was gone again. And then that necromancer guy with the bad skin showed up. I don't know everything, because there was a lot going on, but you don't know that you weren't supposed to come back. You don't know that there weren't other loopholes. Because, guess what? There were. You know Emma's crystal? That plus Landon plus golem plus your blood equals NEW LOOPHOLE. So maybe you were meant to come back so we could all come up with a better, less permanent solution. And I've told you this before, but I'll tell it to you again, and I will deny it and swear I've been hacked, but the world was not better off without you. Because there was a Hope sized hole missing from everyone, even if no one realized that's what it was.
So maybe it didn't work how you thought it was supposed to work, but it did work. And it worked the way it ended up working, which was better than however you thought it was supposed to, because you came back, and Josie found a way to bring back your memories, and others found a way to close the portal pit thing.
I don't remember being here before, and I can't imagine what it was like when I didn't know you or what it'd be like to be so beyond unknown to familiar people. Sometimes I think But I do know remembering you is better than not.