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Tweak says, "I before E comes after C"

Five (jumps) wrote in somerealityweb,
@ 2019-08-11 20:06:00

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Texts to Audrey Jensen

>> I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.
>> It's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.
>> I can’t explain myself, I’m afraid, Sir, because I am not myself, you see.

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	fknaudrey 2019-08-12 12:27 am UTC (link)
	» ~~I'm not~~ » ~~Are you~~ » ~~What about~~ » One doesn't like changing so often, you know. (Reply to this) (Thread)

jumps
2019-08-12 01:32 am UTC (link)

>> No, one does not.
>> It can be overwhelming, change.
>> It can smack you in the head.
>> It can make your chest tight, your breath too short, and your pulse quicken to a dizzying speed.
>> It can shred through your nerves and leave you raw.
>> Your synapses fire, everything running too fast and too high for too long.
>> And you're burning on the inside, and it HURTS.
>> It rips through you too fast and too slow and all consuming.
>> And it HURTS.
>> It lays you low, brings you to your knees because you can't stand anymore, can't do anything but experience that change destroying you from the inside.
>> It consumes you until all you want to do is stop it.
>> But then you realize some changes are good.
>> Some changes bring light to dark places.
>> Some changes bring sight.
>> Some changes bring a voice in the night, a song to follow.
>> So you follow that voice.
>> On your hands and knees, you follow it, ignoring the sharp rocks because of the promise of that voice.
>> And its worth it, that voice.
>> That change is worth it.
>> That change came with you.
>> And you're worth it.

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	fknaudrey 2019-08-12 01:49 am UTC (link)
	» Entre la sombra y el alma. » Say it again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jumps 2019-08-12 02:15 am UTC (link)
	>> Topaz is overrated. >> You're worth it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fknaudrey 2019-08-12 02:48 am UTC (link)
	» ~~I f~~ » ~~I'm~~ » ~~I tri~~ » Follow it. » Please. » I slipped. » I just needed the noise to stop. » Say it again? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jumps 2019-08-12 03:07 am UTC (link)
	>> Would singing help the noise? >> Paint? >> Something else? >> You're worth it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fknaudrey 2019-08-12 03:14 am UTC (link)
	» You. » Quiet. » I don't think I'd mind painting, though. » That sounds nice. » ~~I don't~~ » I don't want to take you away from anything, though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jumps 2019-08-12 03:55 am UTC (link)
	~~>> Time travel~~ >> Quiet painting sounds nice. >> I need it, too. >> You won't. >> You have family Sundays. It's like that. >> Which is strange. >> But you are important, too. >> Very important. >> So quiet and painting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fknaudrey 2019-08-12 04:14 am UTC (link)
	» Whatever you need. » Just tell me. » I'll see you soon. » I'll put on coffee. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jumps 2019-08-12 04:22 am UTC (link)
	>> When I know, I’ll tell you. >> Coffee and quiet and you is a good start. >>. I’ll see you soon. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fknaudrey 2019-08-12 04:35 am UTC (link)
	» We'll figure it out together. » You can talk if you need to. It doesn't need to make sense, it doesn't need to be linear, it doesn't even need to be words. » And we'll get breakfast and go to our spot in the morning. » Maybe break things. » Seems like a good place to break things. » In the meantime... » Let yourself in. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jumps 2019-08-12 11:09 am UTC (link)
	>> Together. I like that word. >> I don't think my mind knows what linear is right now. I’ll remember this, however. >> breakfast and breaking things. Sounds like a fun date. >> I shall. (Reply to this) (Parent)