"He's been enjoying things way too much. And any kid who showed up at the barn spoiled him. He's going to be as large as an elephant if I don't do something about it." she rolled her eyes a bit.
Holidays were weird. She was on board with spoiling people but overall they still felt weird. She'd get there, likely, but for now she still felt a little like she was out of sync. She blamed herself, she had done a lot of big new things at once and internal panic happened.
Retreat to some hermit ways was just how it happened to manifest. "We made a mess didn't we?"