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HAYLEY MARSHALL ([info]wolfcry) wrote in [info]somerealityrpg,
@ 2020-08-15 12:44:00

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Entry tags:active: hope mikaelson

WHO: Hayley Marshall-Kenner and Hope Mikaelson
WHERE: Hope's apartment
WHEN: The morning after finding out Landon was sent home
WARNINGS: TBD
SPOILERS? None

Hayley knew Hope had spent the night with the twins, no doubt drowning her sorrows in greasy food and ice cream in an attempt to numb the pain caused by Landon's departure. However, Hayley was determined to see her daughter the next day, especially after finding out that Hope's father, Klaus, had been sent home too. It would be a double blow to her daughter and Hayley knew she had to be the one to tell Hope that her father was gone too. She needed to be there for Hope, like Hope had been there to tell her about everything that had happened back home. Her daughter needed her and there was no one and nothing that could stop Hayley from getting to her.

She did head to Hope's until later in the morning, figuring her daughter had stayed up late and would need all the sleep she could get (if she managed to get any at all). Hayley arrived, bringing fresh coffee with her, and took a deep breath before knocking on her daughter's door. There was always the chance that Hope would not open the door for her and Hayley would not blame her if she didn't. She was in a lot of emotional pain right now. Still, Hayley was going to try even if her daughter did turn her down.


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[info]baculum
2020-08-15 07:07 pm UTC (link)
Being heartbroken wasn't really a new experience for Hope. Not usually over a boy, but she was still familiar with the sharp edges and where it hurt most. The twins had helped last night, joining her for junk food, letting her tell stupid stories and just generally being there for her. It had felt really nice, actually, giving her a few regrets about the way she'd spent her mid-to-late teen years. There was something to be said for being able to just let her guard completely down with other people. But that didn't mean she didn't want some private mourning time, too.

After sending the twins home with promises that she'd be fine, Hope had crawled back into bed. The pillows still smelled like Landon, but now they also had a mix of the Saltzmans. It was almost like school, which was comforting, and of course the bed was soft, unlike the hard world outside of it. Too numb to process the passing of time, it felt like only minutes had passed when a knock came at the door. Figuring it was either the twins or her roommates, she pulled back the covers enough to be heard, then called out from the bed. "I said I was fine!" Which she had said. Didn't make it true, but there was nothing to be done for that except wait.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-16 05:12 pm UTC (link)
It was exactly what Hayley expected her daughter to say. Hell, it was what Hayley herself would have said if she was in Hope's place. However, Hayley was nothing if not persistent, especially when it came to her daughter. Despite the small smile playing on her lips, Hayley kept any hint of the expression out of her voice as she called out to her daughter through the door.

"Then there should be nothing stopping you from coming to open the door for your mom." Hayley could easily force her way in, but she didn't want to start out this meeting that way. It was not the tone she wanted to set.

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[info]baculum
2020-08-16 05:23 pm UTC (link)
Oh. Right. Hope should have expected a visit from her mom, but after all of these years it was hard to get back in the habit. At least she knew not to expect one from her dad; not over a boy, and not when he couldn't hurt someone over it. Pushing the covers the rest of the way off, she rolled out of the bed and went to open the door.

She knew it had to be easy to spot just how not fine she was, but she still struggled to fight the downward turn her lips wanted to make. "Sorry. I thought you were Josie or Lizzie. Or both."

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-17 03:11 pm UTC (link)
As soon as her daughter opened the door, Hayley knew she was definitely not fine. Hayley moved to set the coffee down on any available space she could find before she swept her daughter up in a tight hug. "Hope, it's okay. You have every right to feel the way you do right now. I am so sorry about Landon."

She wasn't sure how she was even going to bring up Hope's father being sent home too. Hope was already dealing with so much.

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[info]baculum
2020-08-17 04:09 pm UTC (link)
In the safety of Hayley's arms, Hope let herself feel it all again, clinging to her mom as she began to cry. She knew he wasn't gone out of her life back home, but considering the fact that she wasn't the same Hope that was at home anymore, it wasn't very comforting. "I don't know how to deal with the fact that I might never see him again." She hadn't lived those months where no one knew who she was, where Landon looked at her like a stranger, but she did have the memories from the Entity's birthday gift. Maybe this time would be better because she didn't have to see him, but maybe it would be worse for the same reason.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-18 08:13 pm UTC (link)
Hope began to cry and Hayley held her tightly. Hayley could only equate those feelings to never being able to see Hope again. She could understand that sense of devastation and overwhelming grief at knowing there was a chance that person was gone forever. She could say the same for losing Elijah; at least she had been able to make some peace with the fact that he was happy with a new life then. It was different for Hope; Landon was back home, but not with this Hope.

"Shh, Hope. It will be okay, alright?" Hayley gently stroked her daughter's hair. "You can't think that way. I know it's hard to believe right now, but he could still come back here, okay?"

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[info]baculum
2020-08-18 11:58 pm UTC (link)
It was so nice to have her mom here to do all of the mom things Hope had been missing the last few years. She bit back every comment about him not remembering her or it not being the same and just let herself take the comfort for once, letting out a soft sigh as her tears slowed. "I was too happy. I had almost everyone I care about. So of course it all went to shit."

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-19 03:05 pm UTC (link)
Hayley wanted to believe that maybe this place would not be that cruel. That maybe Landon would come back and he would remember Hope. Of course, he might not remember the time he spent here with her, but at least it would be better than him not knowing her at all. Still, Hayley knew it would never be the same. She just wished there was a way for her to make it so for her daughter.

"Hope..." Hayley stepped back and gently brushed the traces of tears from her daughter's cheeks before cupping her face lightly in her hands. "Honey, no. No. I know it's hard to believe otherwise right now. Because of this. Because of everything, but it's not true. You can't let yourself believe that. It's hard right now. It hurts so much, but it will be better, okay? It will be slow, but it will get better. And things could always change here. He could come back. Even if it isn't the same."

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[info]baculum
2020-08-20 01:27 am UTC (link)
Hope nodded, trying to avoid her mom's gaze as the tears threatened to come back. She already felt pathetic enough, thank you. "I love him. And I know I don't need him, but..." It was going to suck, trying to sleep without him next to her. She was going to miss the way he could usually make even the worst days better, miss the way he'd loved her. He could come back, she knew her mom was right. She'd seen it so many times. But would she be that lucky? Would she be able to trust it could last if he did?

Taking a deep breath, she finally met Hayley's eyes. "I'm so tired of everything hurting, Mom." It was childish, maybe, and she didn't like the plaintive tone in her own voice, but it was also so true.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-20 08:09 pm UTC (link)
Hayley knew Hope was trying to hold on to whatever strength she had left. Hayley knew how that felt. She knew what it was like to lose someone you loved; she'd lost Jackson and no matter how much she loved Elijah, a part of her loved Jackson too. She remembered how broken she was after he was killed. At least Landon was still alive. Hayley knew that didn't make it any better though.

"You love him, Hope. Need has nothing to do with it," Hayley replied gently, brushing a piece of hair behind her daughter's ear. "You love him. No one needs another person really. People can handle themselves, but we want that other person. We want to love." Hayley wished she could take some of the pain from her daughter. She hated seeing her like this. Hope deserved nothing, but happiness. Her only misfortune was being born into a family that never seemed to have a chance at it.

"I know you are." Hayley took her daughter's hand and squeezed. Hayley knew because she had been there too. Tired of every second hurting because of loss and death. "And I wish I could make it stop. I wish I could make it so you never had to be hurt again, but I can't. I can only be here and help you through it. Help you find that strength that I know you have to keep going no matter how much it hurts."

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[info]baculum
2020-08-20 08:26 pm UTC (link)
Loving Landon had changed her life, Hope knew that. Not in some overdramatic way, just the simplest things. He'd managed to be there for her, to push through the barriers that had kept so many other people out. He'd made her realize she didn't have to work so hard to keep herself apart, which had opened her heart up to so many more people. She didn't want to look over the flaws they had as a couple, but she couldn't deny how good he was for her. That was the part she'd miss the most.

At least she had her parents and her family, though. Much of the reason she'd been closed off at school was tied up in them, in losing them. In having to hide who she was for so long because of how dangerous it was to be known as a Mikaelson. No one here cared about her family name. Well, except when the Entity messed with them. Taking her mom's hand, she squeezed back and forced out a smile. She had all of the experience in the world telling her that asking her mom not to leave was futile, but she still wanted to anyway. "You being here is more than I ever thought was possible. It helps. A lot."

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-23 06:45 pm UTC (link)
And there was that brave smile. That attempt to be strong despite being in so much pain. Hayley knew it so well; it was an expression she had worn more times in her life than anyone ever should have to. She knew Hope would never be capable of living her life without being forced to display that kind of strength; she just prayed it wouldn't be nearly as often as Hayley had to wear it. She wanted happiness for Hope more than she wanted anything in her entire life because there was no one that deserved it more.

Hayley couldn't make that promise. This place could send her away at anytime and there was nothing she could do about that. Nothing any of them could do. She just prayed that wouldn't happen anytime soon. Maybe never at all. "I'm glad I can be here. Especially for you," Hayley replied and gave her daughter a small smile.

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[info]baculum
2020-08-23 10:42 pm UTC (link)
Tucking a leg under herself, Hope sat at the end of her bed. She was feeling every possible kind of tired a person could feel at the moment, and even standing had gotten to be too much. If she let it, she knew she could easily spend weeks curled up in bed, because she'd done it more than once before. But she didn't want to let herself sink into despair this time.

"Do you think we could do something tomorrow? Dinner, maybe? With you and me and Dad and the whole family?" Dinner could be nice. It would taste like ashes, but she felt better with her family around her.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-24 10:13 pm UTC (link)
Then there was the hard part. Telling Hope that her father was gone too. How did Hayley even begin? It was like every time Hope asked why her father didn't write her back or speak to her as she was growing up. Hayley had to try and find a way to make it not so bad. She knew Klaus loved Hope even if he didn't consider himself a good father at the time. How did she say he was gone for good now? Or at least, until this place decided to bring him back?

"We can. Of course. Just...I have to tell you something and I wish I didn't have to." Hayley reached for her daughter's hand again. She didn't want to say it. She didn't want to be the bearer of bad news, to once again say Klaus was gone and she didn't know when he would be back.

"Your father....Your father was sent home, Hope. I found from Elijah before I came here. I wanted to be the one to tell you." Hayley swallowed. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I wish it wasn't true. I wish he was still here for you."

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[info]baculum
2020-08-24 10:25 pm UTC (link)
"Oh." Hope shut her eyes and took a deep breath, trying not to let Hayley see the look in her eyes yet again. The depth of disappointment and hurt Hayley had seen so many other times as Hope was growing up. It was different this time, because it wasn't his choice, but she still felt all of those same familiar feelings. In many ways they'd wasted this chance to be together again. It didn't help that Hope knew he was going back to wandering and watching. He wasn't going to be at peace like her mother, and that was Hope's fault.

"How's—How is everyone else taking it?" Her aunts and uncles would be upset over their brother leaving, and she wondered if there was anything she could do, though she doubted it. A small, irrational bubble of fear bloomed in her at the thought that they might scatter again, leave her alone.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-24 11:54 pm UTC (link)
Hayley saw it coming before Hope shut her eyes and took a deep breath. Hayley knew that look even if Hope tried to conceal it from her. How many times had Hayley seen that disappointment, that pain as Hope was growing up? Too many times for a child to have to feel as if their father didn't love them. While Klaus leaving was not his doing this time, Hayley knew Hope still felt that sense of disappointment and loss at his departure. It was hard not to when it was what you equated with your father your entire life.

"I'm sorry, Hope," Hayley said again. "I know this was supposed to be a second chance for him too. I'm sorry you didn't have the chance to fully utilize it." And Hayley did feel awful. She wanted Klaus to be a father to Hayley more than anything. Hope loved her father; she just wished Klaus had put aside his own bullshit long enough to see it and embrace it. Still, the comfort was it was not his fault this time at least.

Of course Hope would worry about the rest of the family. No doubt she believed they would now abandon her too. Scatter as they had in their world with Klaus's departure. Hayley didn't think they would do that. Things were different here. "Elijah is broken up. They all are. They know what happens to him Hope and it devastates them, but they won't leave you. Or us. They love you and Elijah is not going to give up the market on supplying you with an endless supply of kittens." Okay, so the last part was a joke, weak, but needed.

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[info]baculum
2020-08-25 12:09 am UTC (link)
Her body was awash with pinpricks as she tried to reconcile losing Landon and her dad in the same swoop. She really didn't want to cry again, didn't want to put her mom through it just because the Entity had it out for her. How many times had Hope heard those words from Hayley? How many times had it been up to her mom to suffer because of what her dad had chosen to do? Way too many. "You don't have to keep apologizing for him. Or for this place."

Her eyes were glassy with unshed tears when she finally opened them, Hayley of course seeing right to the heart of her and her fears. She might have gotten dubious luck with who her dad was, but somehow her mom managed to make up for all of that and more. "Do you ever wish... it hadn't been him? So you didn't have to keep making his excuses?" Hope knew this meant she wouldn't be her, but there were plenty of times she would have wished herself out of existence, too.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-25 08:53 pm UTC (link)
Klaus and Hayley were complicated. Their drunken one night stand had resulted in the existence of the most beautiful being on the planet (at least to Hayley, but she was bias after all). As much as Klaus could drive her crazy, be vindictive and brash, and yes hurt her in his attempts to keep Hope all to himself, Hayley did not wish that night had not happened. As much as he had disappointed Hope, he had given her Hope and for that she would always be grateful to Klaus. He allowed her a chance to be a mother, which while frightened her, also made her happier than anything else in the world. No, she didn’t regret it. She only regretted the pain that had come from her daughter coming from two people with complicated lives and pasts.

“Never.” Hayley reached out and gently touched her daughter’s face. “Never, Hope. Without him, I never would have met you. The most wonderful person in the world who I love so much. I would never get to be your mom and I will never ever regret any part of that. Ever.”

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[info]baculum
2020-08-26 02:47 am UTC (link)
Leaning into Hayley's touch, Hope nodded. It was good, she supposed, that at least her mom didn't regret having her. She swiftly steered her brain away from the thought that her dad might, since he wasn't there to defend himself and it was mostly her broken heart that was speaking, not her rational self. He'd loved her in his own way, she knew that logically.

"You're really good at being my mom," she flashed a small smile. "Is there anything else? Anyone else that left?" She just wanted to curl up in her bed and indulge herself for at least the day before trying to pull the broken pieces together into a semblance of herself and face the world.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-28 08:38 pm UTC (link)
As far as Hayley knew, no one else had left. If any of Hope’s friends she had made here had left, Hayley was unaware. She was still new and hadn’t been introduced to everyone Hope knew here. She hoped no one else had disappeared; Hope had enough to deal with losing Landon and Klaus. Her daughter didn’t deserve anymore.

Hayley did smile at the statement. “At least I’m good at something. And it happens to be the most important thing.” God, she loved Hope so much. Even if she was all grown up, Hayley would always feel the need to protect her and yes, take care of her…as much as Hope would allow. After all, Hayley also knew Hope could handle herself too and that made her heart swell with pride. Her daughter was amazing. Hayley felt lucky to be Hope’s mom.

“No one else that I know of. I hope no one you befriended here has left though. I know you have a lot of friends here.”

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[info]baculum
2020-08-30 04:20 pm UTC (link)
She wasn't going to let that statement stand, not after everything she knew Hayley had done. "You're good at a lot of things. I mean, some of those things aren't here... but you were—are—still good at them." She couldn't keep the peace in New Orleans if there was no New Orleans, and hardly any factions of witches, vampires, or wolves, but it had still been a thing she was good at.

"I know it's kind of cowardly, but I don't think I can look through the network to find out if anyone else I know has left. Not right now." Maybe it was a good thing Hayley hadn't had much of a chance to meet her friends. Her heart felt broken enough with the lost potential of having her dad around, and the loss of comfort and happiness Landon provided.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-30 06:12 pm UTC (link)
Hayley smiled at her daughter. Without those things, like keeping the peace between fractions, Hayley felt somewhat at a loss as to what to do with herself. With the Mikaelson fortune here, it wasn't as if she needed to obtain employment either. Obviously, Hayley was grateful for the second chance with Hope and Elijah, but there was a part of her that wanted to find a place for herself here too. A place like she had in New Orleans.

"Thanks, Hope," Hayley replied, squeezing her daughter's shoulder. "I hope I can find something here for myself like that. A way to help." It was a goal at least.

Hayley understood. Her daughter wasn't ready to know, not after losing Landon and Klaus at the same time. She needed time. "It's okay, Hope. You have a lot to deal with right now."

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[info]baculum
2020-08-30 06:18 pm UTC (link)
Scooting back on the bed, she drew her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around her legs. "Weird stuff happens here, sometimes really bad things, like Mikael, sometimes just weird. Sometimes good. There's usually some way to help when the bad or weird things happen." She'd made a promise not to put herself between the bad things and the people she loved to someone who wasn't here anymore, so did she still have to keep it? She wasn't sure.

"You could maybe find a way to help people who show up here, too? Get them settled? So it's not just during the really shitty times."

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-30 07:42 pm UTC (link)
Hayley felt that suggestion was a good one. She could help people when they arrived and when bad things happened. Maybe beside her own daughter even. "That's a good idea, Hope," Hayley replied. "I could help people when they first arrive and if things end up badly."

Hayley held out one of the coffees to her daughter. "Thank you for that suggestion."

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[info]baculum
2020-08-30 07:47 pm UTC (link)
Taking the coffee, she held it in both hands to draw in more of the warmth. "'Course. I've been here... a year now, actually. I missed my anniversary... Anyway, it's easier to see that stuff the longer you've been here." She didn't have quite the same personality traits that made her mom really good at that stuff, but she thought Hayley would be really good at it.

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[info]wolfcry
2020-08-31 08:42 pm UTC (link)
“It’s something I will consider then.” She knew the longer she was here, the easier it would become to handle the weirdness that happened here. She didn’t think she would ever get use to the possibility of losing the people she cared about though…or the idea of Hope losing her. That bothered her more than anything. She knew Hope would be okay, but it was the mother in her that never wanted to leave her daughter alone to face the world…no matter how old her was or how much Hayley knew she was capable of handling herself.

“And in the meantime, you and I can spend some mother-daughter time as much as we can.” She reached out and squeezed her daughter’s shoulder. “It’ll be okay. I know you’re strong, but it’s okay to lean on me once and a while. It’s why I’m here.”

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