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Landon Kirby ([info]mopheadedhobbit) wrote in [info]somerealityrpg,
@ 2020-01-08 12:37:00

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Entry tags:active: hope mikaelson, inactive: landon kirby

WHO: Landon Kirby and Hope Mikaelson
WHERE: An abandoned building on the Lower East Side
WHEN: Tonight, after this
WARNINGS: TBD
SPOILERS? Legacies 2x8?


It hadn't taken too long for the spell to track Hope down, and once it had, Landon had insisted that he come alone. He knew Hope well, and knew that she would be overwhelmed if a bunch of people descended on her all at once. He hoped desperately that his arrival wouldn't freak her out too bad, but he was determined to stay calm about it all, because that was what Hope needed. She needed just the steady knowledge that he needed her and that he loved her.

Picking through the rubble that covered the floor of the chilly inside of the building, he slid his hands in his pockets until he came in sight of her. He looked at her for a long moment without saying anything, then simply sat on a bigger piece of the damage she'd caused here. He didn't need to say anything, or do anything. He'd just sit here until she was ready to talk to him, however long that might be.

And he was prepared for it to be a very long time. But he wasn't going anywhere until she did.



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[info]baculum
2020-01-08 08:26 pm UTC (link)
It had been a lonely few days. Hope had spent them telling herself this was what she wanted, what she'd done to herself. It was what she'd thought was for the best for everyone else. Even if she no longer thought she was the cause of the disappearances (if she'd ever actually believed that...), she was still dangerous to other people in a state like this as evidenced by the condition of the building she was in. Dr. Saltzman was right; she was too much her father's daughter. But he wasn't here now to help guide her. She had to do it herself, and if she couldn't, in her mind that meant she had to remove herself. Maybe permanently, maybe temporarily.

Sometime last night she'd run out of steam. Now she just felt numb with a hint of embarrassment. She didn't know what to do with herself, didn't know how to reach out now that she'd come back to her senses. Maybe if she just stayed here, the Entity would send her home and she wouldn't have to worry about it.

"Landon." She hadn't been expecting him, enough that she didn't know if he was a hallucination or not. "What-?"

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-08 08:30 pm UTC (link)
"Hey, Hope," he said, once she spoke. She might have been dangerous, but Landon wasn't afraid. Even if she killed him, it wouldn't be forever. And plus, she'd killed him before. Nothing she could do to him physically could hurt nearly as much as the fact that she'd abandoned him and refused to answer his texts.

"Found you. Well, Bonnie did anyway." He looked down at the floor for a long moment.

"Are you coming back?"

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[info]baculum
2020-01-08 09:38 pm UTC (link)
Letting out a shaky sigh, Hope shot him a look as she fought not to break down. She'd done this to herself. She deserved it. "I don't know how," she admitted. "I messed up. Like, really messed up." She'd spent seven years of her life lying about who she was—you didn't make friends when you weren't even able to be honest about your name. And after that... well, it hadn't been easy for her to accept people into her life. With almost no one in Goodland who knew her or her family, it had felt easier. She let people in, she made relationships that mattered to her. And then she'd imploded them. She didn't know how to come back from that, she'd barely known why they'd tolerated her in the first place. Especially not after the things she'd said.

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-08 09:44 pm UTC (link)
“You just come back,” he said softly. “And if people are mad, you say sorry. You work to fix what you messed up. Look, I get it, I get that urge to just run away and be safe. I’ve done that so many times myself. But...I guess I’ve kind of learned that it doesn’t fix anything. You’ve got to just...go back. Everyone screws up, Hope. And I can’t speak for other people but you didn’t mess up anything with me. I’m not mad. Worried a little, yeah, but not mad.”

He looked up at her, smiling a little self-deprecatingly.

“I’ve screwed things up so many times. And then I’d run away to make things better. But it never did, you know? Not once.”

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[info]baculum
2020-01-08 11:12 pm UTC (link)
She wrapped her arms around her middle and considered his words. "I want it all to stop hurting. But I couldn't turn it off—which is so frustrating, by the way, that I still care. Everyone was supposed to hate me," which she'd maybe partially succeeded at, "and then I could stop giving a fuck and then it wouldn't hurt anymore." The texts from Landon and others had only shown how far off she was in that theory. But she'd felt so awful after blowing up at Pepper that she didn't dare try the same thing with anyone else. At least Sebastian had gotten it without much effort on her part.

Her lips twitched to the side as she tried to keep herself from crying. "I'm sorry for worrying you," she murmured. That was a start, right?

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-09 01:24 am UTC (link)
“You don’t have to apologize to me. I get it. I love you, Hope. And I know you. I know where this is coming from. And yeah, caring about people can hurt like hell. That’s...kind of just life?”

He looked over at her, then stood and moved a little closer, so he was sitting right next to her but not touching her.

“Nobody hates you, Hope. Well, maybe some monsters do, but none of your friends here do. We just want you to come back. So many people here love you. Yeah, Josie’s gone and Dr. Saltzman’s gone, and that sucks. But Pepper and Tony and Freddy and Mal and Harry and Bonnie and Damon and Lizzie and even Sebastian offered me help in finding you.”

He was quiet for a moment, just sitting beside her wishing he knew the right thing to say to get through to her.

“Will you come back? If not for me, for all of them?”

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[info]baculum
2020-01-09 01:41 am UTC (link)
"Yea, well, life sucks. And I know they're not dead, and that they could come back, but I'm so tired of losing people, Landon. I'm not strong enough to keep going through this. What if they don't remember me next time? What if there isn't a next time?" What if she was going to lose people she'd literally never see again?

The list of names stung almost as much as the fact that he was so deliberately not touching her. "He's not as bad as you think. Sebastian. I don't know the full history, but it really seems like he wants to do better here, make a new start. Have friends." Which was maybekindofpossibly familiar territory...

"... I think I have to want to do it for me if I'm going to make it stick."

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-09 01:49 am UTC (link)
He couldn't help it, he closed the few inches between them and gently took her hand in his. Seeing her hurting like this was breaking his heart and more than anything he wished he could make it all go away. But he knew he couldn't. Loss was part of life, and he couldn't make the people who had left come back. It wasn't in his power.

He just shrugged a little. "Pretty sure that he doesn't like me, either." It was a personality clash as much as anything else. And maybe he was a little sore still about being murdered like that, even if he had come back.

"Great. Then do it for you. Come back and be with your friends. Be with me. Enjoy being around those of us who are still here."

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[info]baculum
2020-01-09 02:28 am UTC (link)
The tension in her shoulders melted away nearly as soon as he touched her. Yea, she'd really stood no chance of not caring for her people here. The ache in her chest shifted forms and she sighed, letting her head loll onto his shoulder.

"He's asked about you. When you'll stop hating him. That doesn't sound like someone who doesn't like you. He doesn't know a lot of people here, but he knows the three of us. Sometimes that's enough in this place."

"... I was happy this Christmas. Do you know how many years its been since I've been happy at Christmas? I let myself enjoy it and then everything fell apart." Remembering why she hadn't had very many happy Christmases made her chest tighten. Her dad had run away, too. At least, that how she'd seen it at the time. Her mother sent her away, changed her name, and her dad cut off all communication and went on a killing spree. At least she hadn't done the last part, she consoled herself as the first tear dripped off of the bridge of her nose and onto his arm.

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-09 02:35 am UTC (link)
When she rested her head on his shoulder, Landon put an arm around her, his heart warming at her closeness and the contact between them. It was ridiculous how much he loved her, but he wouldn't change it for the world.

He sighed when she spoke of Sebastian. He knew it was kind of stupid to dislike anyone for killing him. After all, it didn't stick, and it's not like he held it against Hope. It wasn't really fair to hold it against Sebastian, either.

"I was happy too," he said softly. "Happy with you. Christmas was never much of a good thing for me, either. When you're a foster kid...well, it just kind of rubs in how alone you really are. And how you really aren't their kid after all." He leaned down and kissed her hair, wiping her tear away gently with his thumb.

"I love you so much," he said softly. "And I hate it when you're hurting like this. I don't know how to fix it."

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[info]baculum
2020-01-09 02:55 am UTC (link)
"I love you, too. If I knew how to fix it, or how you could, I'd tell you. I don't want to feel like this. It's like something in me just ... snaps, and then I'm all raw nerves and I have to put up these walls because it's the only way I know how to stop that kind of pain. Maybe there are other ways, but I don't know what they are— I don't trust them." She really was broken like her dad had said, just in a different way.

"What if I'm not as put back together as I think? What if I go back and someone touches the nerves and I lash out? Especially with the full moon on Friday..." Things hadn't even been bad last full moon and she'd attacked Tandy. This moon could be a disaster.

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-09 03:05 am UTC (link)
"I know. I know you would." Hope was good at taking care of herself, and he knew that if she could fix this thing tearing her apart, she would. He just hated that he couldn't help. A guy thing, maybe.

"You know what, why don't you stay with me? I mean, I know we're close already but...I mean, really stay with me? We don't have to do anything, but maybe if things get real bad then you won't be alone? You're so strong, Hope, it just amazes me sometimes, but you don't have to take it all on your own shoulders. Let me help. We're both almost old enough to be on our own, you know? And if something goes wrong and you lose it or something? If you lash out? Well, anything you do to me isn't permanent."

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[info]baculum
2020-01-09 03:14 am UTC (link)
Shifting closer (it felt good to be close, but also he was warm after days in this chilly building by herself), Hope nodded. "I asked Bonnie to take in Lizzie before I left. I don't know if that means I'm alone, or if I got moved... But I'd like to, on one condition. You can't let me hurt you. We don't know how many lives you get, Landon, and I don't like the idea of falling back on that just because I can't control myself."

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-09 03:17 am UTC (link)
Landon frowned a little at that. There was so little that he knew about what he was, and how it worked. He'd always kind of assumed he got infinite lives, and so far that had been true. But he didn't have any proof of it. Maybe phoenixes were somehow limited. He desperately wished he knew more about that, but he didn't know any other phoenixes. He didn't even know if there were any others.

"Okay," he said. "Deal. I won't let you. If I can help it." She was way stronger than him and he didn't have magic or anything, but he'd fight with everything he had if she wanted him to.

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[info]baculum
2020-01-09 03:27 am UTC (link)
"I remember phoenix combat," she said dryly, the closest thing to a joke she'd said in weeks. "You probably couldn't if I was really going. I just don't like you being so eager to offer it."

So... this meant she had to go back, didn't it. Her stomach twisted up in knots at the thought of it. "Could we start that before Friday, you think? Like... right now?" One night in this safe bubble before she had to go see people again.

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-09 03:31 am UTC (link)
"Oh, yeah, definitely, bad-ass phoenix combat will definitely do the trick." He grinned a little, tentatively, hoping maybe he could bring even a tiny hint of a smile from her, as well.

"We can definitely start that tonight. It's late. There won't be many people up or around, so we can make it to my room without anyone noticing. And you can just stay there, with me."

And no, he didn't mean sex. Even though he was a teenage guy, that wasn't even on his mind right now. He just wanted to help Hope feel better. Holding her all night and keeping her safe from her demons was all he was intending to do.

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[info]baculum
2020-01-09 03:39 am UTC (link)
His dumb joke earned him the barest huff of laughter and a headshake, but it still felt good to her. Normal. As normal as things got.

"I can make us invisible, too, if we need to. I've got months of sneaking in and out of that floor under my belt. Oh, and I can shower there, too." She'd missed showers. Lifting her head for a second, she pressed her lips to his cheek. "Thanks."

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-09 03:45 am UTC (link)
"Sure. I mean, I've got t-shirts and stuff you can borrow. I think I've got a pair of sweats that would stay on you?" She'd definitely look awesome in his clothes and he got a little thrill thinking about it.

"Can we go now then? I'm...well, I'm totally freezing. It's miserable in here. You can get a shower and I'll order us some food. Pizza okay?"

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[info]baculum
2020-01-09 03:50 am UTC (link)
"Sounds perfect, thanks." Much better than trying to get her clothes washed and dried while she showered. Pushing up from the floor, she held her hand down to help him up if he wanted it.

"Pizza's good, can you get it from that place I like?" The pizza place Rose had shown her that first day was her favorite, enough that she'd passed the good news on to most everyone. Even though Rose was gone now, it felt like the right thing to keep going there.

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[info]mopheadedhobbit
2020-01-09 03:54 am UTC (link)
Landon took her head and stood, keeping hold of her hand even after he was up.

"Definitely. Of course. Wouldn't have thought of getting it from anywhere else. And some of those cheesesticks too. Those things are addictive."

He squeezed her hand tightly, and started walking towards the door of the filthy, damaged building. Things weren't perfect for Hope yet, he knew that. But it felt good just to know that she was with him again, and that she'd let them work things out together, maybe.

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