Sam / Peter
Yeah? That must have been an experience.
That's what I'm figuring, that it's going to come down. I'm fine with facing all of it [...] to be honest, I think part of the problem is that I want to know what's behind there, no matter how bad it is. I doubt that's helping the wall stay up. The problem is that the memories of hell aren't just in my mind, they're coming from my soul, so they're a little overwhelming for my mind to handle, I guess? From what I saw of my future, it ends up with hallucinations that I'm still in the pit.
But maybe what you're talking about can help with that. I know people can learn to live with delusions [...] someone said that to me, once, and it looks like I did figure it out. But I suspect that being in a place like this, where everything is a little farfetched (as opposed to my home world, I mean), might make it even harder to distinguish between what's real and what's not.
I'm working with Severus Snape to keep the flashbacks from getting in my way, but a permanent solution sounds good. Would you need to take the whole wall down to do that? Because that could put me out of commission for a bit, so it might be better to wait until it seems like we might be safe for a little while. I know you've all been surviving without me, but I'd rather not leave you a man down, all the same.