Ivy. (ivonnahurtyou) wrote in snitchers, @ 2017-09-23 15:26:00 |
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Entry tags: | char: fred weasley, char: ivonna montgomery, char: john dawlish |
Owl to John Dawlish & Fred Weasley
To: John
From: Ivy
My Dear Friend,
I wrote this before I left to meet with Max. I have instructed my owl to delay sending it until I know that my plan has worked. If you're reading this I can only assume that I'm not longer myself and I will need your help. I am sorry to put you in this position and force you to carry the weight of my secret, but you are the only person I can trust to follow my instructions and know that this is what has to be done.
You will need to remind me of the following things. I trust that you will not judge or share any of this information. Use whatever magic you will need to ensure that I know everything on this list or all the sacrifices I made will have been pointless. Please, John, do this and know that one day I will be myself again. If I found my way out of his darkness once I know I can do it again.
Memories
Mia is pregnant with Terence's child. She is a Rebel and they are very much in love. She's come back to him after being sick.
Emy dated Oliver Wood recently. It ended badly and I don't want him near her.
I chased and hunted Neville Longbottom and Fred Weasley. I hate them both and want to continue to chase them.
I-- I care for Max. I want to be with him.
Finally, I have enclosed several vials of my most precious memories. Keep them safe for me, please. Do not tell a soul you have them, not Renee, not Helen, not my family and especially not Fred. I am begging you not to give them to me until you know it's the right time and I trust your judgment.
I'm doing this for my sister. And to pay penance for all the wrong I've done in the world. My sins cannot be forgotten simply because I decided not to commit any new ones. Max will not stop, John. He will continue to seek me until he's won and I cannot let anyone else suffer on my behalf. I don't deserve that and I won't subject anyone else to it.
My heart cannot take learning the truth yet. I don't know if it ever will. But, for now, I have to ask you to protect me from the truth and keep my heart safe a little longer. You're my best friend. Thank you for being so good to me always.
I will miss knowing you as the person I am now. I hope someday I'll be her again.
Love,
Ivy
[ooc: letter is heavily tear stained]
To: Fred Weasley
From: Ivy
My Biscuit,
I love you. Right now I am sitting in our bedroom and trying to find the words to tell you just how much I love you, but words have never been easy for me. I've always been a woman of action, preferring to run after what I want rather than talk about it. But, you need these words. Soon they'll be all you have of me and I need you to know how I feel.
There will never be enough time with you. Even if we had lived together until we were old and wrinkled I would want more time. Every moment with you was better than the last. You changed me. I don't think I would have ever chosen to change if not for you. And for that, I thank you. You taught me that I wasn't a bad person and without you there... well. I'd be the person I think I'm going to become again.
I wish I could tell you to come save me, but you can't. Max won't let me go and I don't want you to die because of me. You have a family you love, a family you want to protect. And that's what I'm doing as well. I'm protecting you and Mia and Ter and Emy. You're my family.
Forgetting you is the worst thing that could happen to me. Because I want to hold onto every day I had with you. I will miss your smile, the way your hands always seemed to reach out and find me, and your perfect laugh. You are the love of my life, Biscuit. And I am so, so sorry that I cannot spend the rest of my life with you.
Be safe. Be strong. And know that you live buried in my heart. I hope one day I'll find you again.
I love you,
Ivy
[ooc: letter is very tear stained]