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snarryswapmod (snarryswapmod) wrote in snarry_swap,
@ 2009-01-10 12:00:00

Entry tags:

creation: fic, rakina, rated: nc-17

Happy Daft Day, triceybabe!
Recipient: triceybabe
Title: Look… At Me
Author: rakina
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Underage Snape (he's 15 here), bottom!Snape, rimming.
Prompt/Summary: Here is Triceybabe's list of kinks: rimming, chan, bottom!snape deaged!snape, plot, one shots, ust, crossdressing. Bottom!Snape! (I really really love bottom!snape, so I had to put it twice! lol)
Word Count: 29,254
A/N: First of all, many thanks to my excellent beta, hel_bee, for getting this done in time after I sprang it on her rather abruptly at the end.
Next, to Triceybabe: I did my best to make you a story from (most of) your chosen kinks, and I do hope you like it. A very happy Snarry New Year to you, and to all who read it.
Finally, a big thank you to the mods for running such a well-organised fest. We're all richer for it.

Look… At Me

If you want to rec this fic, please link this post, not the off-site URL! Thank you!

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	eriador117 2009-01-10 07:46 am UTC (link)
	Well, as you know, I'm not really a bottom!Snape fan, Rakina, but I gave it a go because it was written by you, LOL! I did enjoy it (I suppose the fact that Snape was younger helped with the bottomy!bits ;) Lovely and very hot. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 03:58 pm UTC (link)
	Dear Annette, I'm very honoured that you plough through my bottom!Snape ventures. There aren't that many of them, but it probably seems endless to you, LOL. Thank you for your lovely comment. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	snapessecret 2009-01-10 08:04 am UTC (link)
	OMG! I seem to be saying that a lot lately. Fantastic. Love it. I could feel myself responding to the vulnerability in your writing. Excellent. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 03:58 pm UTC (link)
	YAY! Thank you so much. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	torino10154 2009-01-10 09:44 am UTC (link)
	Wonderful fic! I just adore your young Severus, with Harry taking care of him, easing him out of his shell. They two just have so much in common, at the same age they are truly perfect for each other. Lovely, delicious sex. :) Great job. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 03:59 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you! What a lovely comment. grins (Reply to this) (Parent)

	centaury_squill 2009-01-10 10:38 am UTC (link)
	I loved your portrayal of de-aged Severus, and the growing trust and love between him and Harry. Excellent writing. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 04:00 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you very much! I'm so glad you read it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	snarry_fan7 2009-01-10 01:27 pm UTC (link)
	Most excellent, lovely, and hot work! I really like how quickly Harry and Severus become close friends and how it develops into a deeper relationship. I love the way they interacted throughout the story. Well done!!~Sophia (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 04:00 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you, Sophia. It's so nice to have another comment from you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	tamara_severia 2009-01-10 05:21 pm UTC (link)
	Wonderful! And I would love to see how it ended, if Severus stayed deaged, what happened with their friendship and love when faced with What-His-Name etc. Most excellent, lovely, hot and... searching dictionary for something clever to say Great fic! is embarrassed because hasn't found words good enough to describe such brilliant piece of work (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 04:01 pm UTC (link)
	Wow! that's a nice comment, and you certainly didn't fail with your words. You're so kind... (Reply to this) (Parent)

	triceybabe 2009-01-10 05:23 pm UTC (link)
	I loved it! Thank you so much. I especially adore the ending. I love the fierceness of the desperation. The anxiety of his tome. Love it! Thank you! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 04:02 pm UTC (link)
	I'm so glad you liked it, triceybabe, because of course it was all done for you! Have a lovely Snarry New Year! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	yura_slash 2009-01-10 07:45 pm UTC (link)
	how wonderful! and fortuitous--i was just asking for recs on snape_potter that involved a de-aged severus or harry. thanks for writing! :) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 04:02 pm UTC (link)
	It certainly was good timing then! I'm glad you enjoyed it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	thesewarmstars 2009-01-10 08:38 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, that was yummy. I'm glad you left it a bit open-ended, so I can tell myself Voldemort just dropped dead one day and Harry and Severus lived happily ever after. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 04:03 pm UTC (link)
	I certainly wanted them to live happily ever after, but to have gone further would have required more than one story, I think. After all, as you know, Severus and Harry's story never ends wink (Reply to this) (Parent)

	ivylady 2009-01-11 02:25 am UTC (link)
	Fabulous. I love your de-aged Snape with partial memories of his life. He's still himself, just younger, and the part of him that is a loner appeals to Harry, which was well done. I also like that he's not changing back to his older self and that he will finish growing with Harry. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-12 04:04 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, I wanted them to end up growing together, rather than Harry losing Severus to his older self once more. Of course, that might still happen, magic being what it is, but I prefer not. Thanks for reading and commenting. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	fbowden 2009-01-12 05:39 am UTC (link)
	FINALLY found time to read this last night after salivating over it's presence on my ipod for a few days!! I LOVED it so much! De-aged Severus is a pure joy to read, and once again you blew me away. hugs (Reply to this) (Thread)

rakina
2009-01-12 04:07 pm UTC (link)

On your iPod, you say? Good idea!
I listen to fic as much as read it, (via text-to-speech), and it really squeezes the fic into my day and speeds up the reading process. Mind you, I'm still miles behind with the new stuff, but at least I'm moving a bit.
Thank you for your nice words; I'm glad you enjoyed it. I was a bit uncertain of writing a younger Snape - the dynamic is far from my more usual 'older Snape teaching/manipulating young Harry' theme. Does us good to have a challenge sometimes though, doesn't it?

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winoniel
2009-01-13 12:51 am UTC (link)

This is fantastic! You've written the boys without so much of their emotional baggage, and allowed their similarities--abusive childhoods, isolation, and destiny--to forge strong connective bonds instead of ties of anger, fear, pride, and resentment.

Great characterizations! I adore your young, vulnerable, self-aware Severus! Harry actually giving himself permission to let go of his mistrust of Severus could only happen when Snape is not continually feeding it, but this is a mature boy looking past the quick, safe, unthinking responses. Your Dumbledore is even more ambiguous than canon, it would be interesting to see his reactions further in the story.

Speaking of which, at first I felt cheated of my denouement at your ending, but upon reflection, I suppose I do like the fact that I can use my imagination to supply the rest of the story that I like! (I'm going for Severus being re-aged, and the two continuing the relationship, yummy!)

And speaking of yummy, the sex was wondrous. Two inexperienced boys discovering each other can be heart-breakingly beautiful, and you've so captured that. Their lovemaking was erotic, sweet, and delicious!

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	rakina 2009-01-14 03:07 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you for such a lovely comment. I wrote this fic during a very difficult time, and worried that it might not make any sense at all. I'm so pleased it worked for you! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	elvirablue 2009-01-14 03:51 pm UTC (link)
	Your Dumbledore was a wonderfully slippery man. I never quite knew what his intentions were, and therefore felt uncomfortable whenever he made an appearance. I especially liked seeing him interact with Madam Pomfrey, who was very down-to-earth. I also enjoyed following the developments in Harry and Severus’ relationship. The sex was lovely, too. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-01-26 02:34 am UTC (link)
	Thank you so much! I always get that feeling from him in the books, so I'm glad my Dumbledore made you feel that way. Thank you for the comment. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Help! zirtaeb 2009-01-14 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	The link takes me to a suspended account! I want to read this story! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Help! snarryswapmod 2009-01-15 04:01 pm UTC (link)
	Sorry for the inconvenience. The Web host has made an error that we are working to fix. We expect the problem to be resolved soon. Check back again. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	bluepeng04 2009-01-15 11:46 am UTC (link)
	Does anyone know if it's posted anywhere else? I checked on WTP, but I guess it was written too recently to be there. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	snarryswapmod 2009-01-15 04:02 pm UTC (link)
	Sorry for the inconvenience. The web host has made an error that we are working to fix. We expect the problem to be resolved soon. Check back again. (Reply to this) (Parent)

majmunka
2009-01-27 11:49 am UTC (link)

Wow, it's beautiful, sweetie! Young Severus' insecurity and distrust so slowly and carefully cured by Harry's thoughtful tenderness. And their fear at the end is just heartbreaking. You left it open but at least we can be sure they will be there to each other even if Sev would be reversed. (But I thing he deserves to remain as his young self :))
Lovely story as always from you. <3

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	rakina 2009-02-07 04:44 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you, Majmunka. I'm so glad you enjoyed it. hugs (Reply to this) (Parent)

	galad222000 2009-01-29 05:26 pm UTC (link)
	I adore de-aging fics and this was delicious, but then so are all your fics. Thanks so much. CB (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-02-07 04:45 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you so much blushes (Reply to this) (Parent)

whitecotton
2009-01-31 09:49 pm UTC (link)

Oh, wow! And wow again! And another for writing so well a particularly favoured, yet often under-developed, theme.

This was such a beautiful tale of what life at Hogwarts would have been like for a Severus Snape outside the clutches of Slytherin. I am so glad you steered away from the unlikely premise that in Gryffindor he would have basked in a fan club, develop laughter lines, and have a future of summers scripting Best Man speeches: so unrealistic. What you have created is a subtle twist of location that will, hopefully, bring him a life fulfilled.

Such a lovely, heart-warming story.

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	rakina 2009-02-07 04:47 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you so much, WC! I'm really glad you enjoyed it. I found it hard to write, as I'm not usually a fan of de-aging fics, as I love the cross-gen dynamic. But people seem to have liked it, which is immensely gratifying. (Reply to this) (Parent)

quill_lumos
2009-02-01 07:30 am UTC (link)

Wow, just wow!! I absolutely loved this and can't understand why I missed it when it was first posted. Mind you there are a few stories that I haven't read yet.

It was a perfect lazy Sunday read. I love, love, love deaged Severus and the way that Harry befriended and then seduced him. I loved the way that he was still recognisably Snape and rejected anyone that wasn't Harry (apart from the reluctant inclusion of Hermione.) His struggle with his sexuality was so poignant and I also really liked the way that he wasn't bullied. The Gryffindors found him standoffish but seemed to accomodate him well enough.

Only complaint? I would so like to see more of this verse.

Thanks for a wonderful story. *hugs*

Lucie xxx

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rakina
2009-02-07 04:50 pm UTC (link)

Dearest Lucie
Thank you for reviewing; your words always mean a lot to me.
I, too, haven't read so many of the recent stories; I'm endlessly struggling to catch up.
I think if Snape was put into Gryffindor, that his house mates would recognise his Gryffindorish qualities, which Snape had in abundance.
As for seeing more? Well, you're greedy *pokes*
As I've said to several commenters, I really find this de-aged Snape hard to write; I've always preferred the age-gap dynamic of traditional Snarry. Showing my own preferences as a young gel there, I suppose, LOL. Now I've hit 50 I've no wish to fancy 20 year older men, funnily enough *snorts*
I might make an exception for Mr Snape, though.

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	leela_cat 2009-02-01 10:39 pm UTC (link)
	I enjoyed this very much. I really enjoyed de-aged Snape being sorted into Gryffindor. It felt very believable. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-02-07 04:51 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	severusphoenix 2009-02-07 12:22 pm UTC (link)
	Whew!!!, I just loved that !!! Any chance of a continuation? I always hate it when a story I like ends.(I always beg for a sequel) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-02-07 04:52 pm UTC (link)
	Ha! if I had £1 for every sequel request I could go on holiday! :-) Thank you for commenting; I appreciate it. I am working on my current WIP, so there are no plans to write more of this one. Sorry... (Reply to this) (Parent)

	szefi 2009-02-19 12:12 pm UTC (link)
	It seems I'm sharing triceybabe's list of kinks, I liked this fic:-) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rakina 2009-03-21 01:06 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you, szefi. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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mac_tunes
2009-06-02 11:05 pm UTC (link)

*melted*
This is so good! I am at loss of words to describe my feelings. Severus as Gryffindor, Severus at 15 years old, Severus being insecure... and best of all, Severus with Harry.... aw~

And the ending... is no ending, but a tentative beginning. And yet, I can't help but feel there is more. Guess time ran out. And I shall dream... that they both emerge victorious over the defeat of You-Know-Who.

*Happy sigh* Thank you!

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	sarahsezlove 2013-03-17 09:34 am UTC (link)
	This is simply wonderful. (Reply to this)