Re: thankyou
Sorry it's taken me so long to answer your comment! My old computer finally died, and I had to replace it, which has meant . . ye gads, no internet for a while.
I am so flattered that you pushed aside some of the more pressing things in your life in order to finish reading this fic. I have delicious memories of doing exactly what you describe - in my case, defying routines and obligations and staying up far too late when I couldn't stop reading a beloved fic. It's one of the great, self-absorbed pleasures fandom has given back to me, the almost naughty pleasure of totally sinking into a story's world. The idea that I've managed to seduce you and give you that same compulsive, hypnotized feeling is the highest possible praise. It's like sharing a secret pleasure.
My perception of Snape is of someone permanently damaged. That doesn't mean he can't function or ever be content or ever love, but it *does* mean that his reactions will always be filtered to some extent through his emotional scars, and will emerge a bit twisted. By now, it's simply part of who he is. I can't imagine him, for example, ever feeling comfortable being called a hero. Much though he burns to be recognized, he's more likely to frame it in the negative, as in: "I'm not a coward."
I don't have an email list. If you're interested, I've got a fic due for snarry_holidays that will be, hm, less ambitious, shall we say. I'm hesitant to recommend it, because I'm honestly not sure how it will turn out. But it cheers me no end that you'd like to see more of my work. Thank you for stopping by to leave this lovely comment.