Serenus Snape (serenus_snape) wrote in snark_n_bark, @ 2008-06-22 18:23:00 |
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Entry tags: | complete, serenus, tybalt |
Time for a Little Life Affirmation
Characters: Serenus, Tybalt
Summary: After the memorial service, Serenus decides it's time for a reminder of life.
After the memorial service, Serenus returned to Azoth House with Gaius, feeling weary in both heart and spirit. It had been healing, in a way, to gather with friends and pay tribute to Sirius' life, but there were so many walking wounded left behind. Harry and Regulus both seemed withdrawn, and Gaius seemed broken, almost fragile. This had been a devastating blow to Gaius, and Serenus knew all too well how Gaius must feel. It made his own heart ache to see all the pain in every face. Remus, Faelan, and all the rest - all hurt and grieving.
He kissed Gaius and bade him good-night and went straight to the master bedroom. Downstairs was dark and quiet, so Tybalt must have gone up already to put the twins to bed and take a shower or perhaps read in bed while he waited for Serenus to return. After the emotional evening, Serenus was more than ready to escape to the haven of their bedroom and the comfort of Tybalt's arms.
He slipped inside the bedroom and closed the door quietly behind himself before leaning against it and just watching Tybalt, who was in bed, for a moment. Propped up on the pillows, Tybalt reclined with a book in hand, wearing nothing but his pajama bottoms, and Serenus let his gaze travel the length of Tybalt's body slowly, feeling the crushing weight of grief beginning to lift a little at the welcome sight.
"Honey, I'm home," he said softly, still leaning against the door.
Tybalt had been engrossed in a detective thriller, so involved in the story that he hadn't heard Serenus enter. He looked up quickly, eyes wide with surprise before he smiled, tossing the book on the nightstand and opening his arms. "There you are, love. You look like you need a cuddle. Come here and I'll make you feel better."
Pushing himself away from the door, Serenus moved swiftly to the bed and paused just long enough to remove his shoes and socks before climbing onto the bed and into Tybalt's arms. Wrapping his own arms around Tybalt in return, he released a gusty sigh and relaxed at last.
"I do need a cuddle," he murmured, pillowing his head on Tybalt's shoulder. "That was more draining than I expected."
Tybalt wrapped his arms around Serenus, holding him close and tight. He'd nearly insisted on going to the wake, but he hadn't liked Sirius, and he would have felt awkward. They'd needed someone to watch the twins as well, and so he'd bowed out, opting to let Serenus go with Gaius and Remus, trusting them all to love and support one another during the ordeal. Now he wished he gone just to be there to hold Serenus and offer his strength.
"I know it was, love," he murmured, pressing his lips to Serenus' temple as he stroked Serenus' back slowly, soothingly. "I'm sorry you had to go through that. It's never easy, is it? I've been to more than a few myself for friends, but never for someone quite as close as Sirius was to Gaius. Maybe everyone can start to heal now, though... I think it helps, in the long run, to have something like that. Sort of putting him to rest, so that people can move forward."
"I hope so." Serenus fell silent for a few moments, and then he released another quiet sigh and nestled closer. "Remus will be all right, and he has Severus to help him. I'm rather worried about Gaius, Regulus, and Harry, though. This has really shaken Gaius, and Regulus seems to have shut down. So has Harry. I wish I could do more to help them."
"You're a very good person, and you care so much." Tybalt buried his nose in Serenus' hair, continuing the caressing, wanting to ease Serenus' pain and worry. "Just don't let it drive you crazy with worry, all right? I'm here to help, too, and so is Severus. I suspect Remus will probably try to help Harry, too. He'd mentioned wanting to be closer to Harry last time we spoke. You are my main concern, though. Whatever you need, I'll happily give."
"Mmmm..." Serenus wriggled beneath Tybalt's stroking hands, a small smile tugging his lips. "What I need right now is a little life affirmation." Without warning, he sprang up and straddled Tybalt's hips, bracing himself with a hand on either side of Tybalt's broad shoulders. "Do you think you can give me that?" he asked, a purring undercurrent in his voice.
Serenus' sudden shift was surprising, but certainly not unwelcome; the sight of his smile made Tybalt's heart beat faster, while the sensual tone of Serenus' voice caused a jolt of electricity to flow down his spine. "I think I could manage that, if you need it," he replied, his blue eyes darkening with arousal. Lifting his hands, he began to unfasten the buttons of Serenus' shirt, then pushed it back and off his shoulders, leaving Serenus bare from the waist up. With a playful smile, he snaked an arm around Serenus' shoulders and pulled him down into a deep, hard kiss, the warm skin of their chests sliding together.
With a soft growl, Serenus returned the kiss in equal measure, letting his hunger rise, and he slid sinuously against Tybalt, teasing him. Relaxing against Tybalt's chest, he slid one hand into Tybalt's hair and took control of the kiss, devouring Tybalt's mouth, claiming it with demanding possessiveness.
"I do need it," he whispered when he broke away at last. "I need you."
"And you have me - all of me," Tybalt replied huskily, moving his hands down to Serenus' hips, holding them while he arched up, letting Serenus see just how true his words were. "How do you want me? I'm yours to command, giving or taking as you desire. I want you to have everything you want and need."
"I want you cracked wide open and utterly undone beneath me." Serenus lifted up so he could gaze down at Tybalt, his eyes filled with heat mingled with love. "I want you to feel me inside you and know you're mine." He cupped Tybalt's cheek in his palm, his expression softening. "You know how much I love you, don't you? More than anything. I want you to remember that every moment of every day."
"I do... I know it because I love you more than anything, too." Tybalt let Serenus see everything, all the love and passion he felt, wanting Serenus to know just how much he was adored, how perfect he was in Tybalt's eyes, how much he filled Tybalt's heart. "Every breath I take, I know it."
Turning his head slightly, Tybalt pressed his lips into Serenus' palm, then rubbed his cheek against it. "Take me, love. Take your pleasure in me. I want you to know how much you are adored and to help heal all your sadness."
"I can never be sad for long while I have you and our boys," Serenus replied, stroking Tybalt's cheek gently. "My family is the best balm for any hurt."
He bent and brushed a tender kiss against Tybalt's lips, and then he began trailing little kisses and licks along Tybalt's jaw to his throat, savoring the warm taste of Tybalt's skin. He splayed his hands on Tybalt's bare chest, stroking and caressing at a leisurely pace, wanting to show Tybalt how much he was loved and desired with each touch. Moving down Tybalt's body, he pressed a kiss over Tybalt's heart.
"Tesoro," he murmured against Tybalt's skin. "Ti amo."
Tybalt tilted his head to offer better access, his breath speeding up as desire flamed in the wake of Serenus' lips on his skin. Serenus knew just how to touch him, just how to fan the flames within him to a raging conflagration. He moaned, arching up again, seeking even more contact as Serenus drove him wild with love and need.
Serenus' adoring words made him smile, and Tybalt lifted one hand, burying it in Serenus' hair, caressing him. "Mio amore," he replied breathlessly. "Mio cuore. Te adoro!"
Serenus smiled to hear the language of his childhood, familiar and all the more beloved for being uttered in Tybalt's voice. Drawing his wand, he banished the rest of their clothes so he could make his way lower without impediment; he closed his eyes as he continued his slow exploration of Tybalt's body, breathing in deeply of Tybalt's comforting scent and losing himself in the haven Tybalt offered. Here, he was safe, and nothing bad could encroach on their little world.
"I love you. Love you so much." He spoke the words again and again as he kissed and caressed his way down to Tybalt's navel, wanting the words to be soaked into Tybalt's very skin, wanting Tybalt to feel the truth of them down to his bones.
Every caress causing the flames of desire to flare higher and hotter, and Tybalt groaned, his body trembling beneath Serenus' from the force of his need. It wasn't just the touches; it was the way Serenus spoke the words of love, covering Tybalt in them like a cocoon. "Oh, Serenus... my love, my darling," he murmured, wanting to give back in some measure the adoration Serenus was giving so freely. "I'm yours, all yours forever." Moving his hands over his head, he grasped the headboard, leaning back against the pillows in a gesture of complete submission. "Whatever you want, I'll give. Whatever you need, I freely offer."
"Just you," Serenus replied, reaching for his wand again. He tapped Tybalt's hip as he cast the preparatory spells, and, discarding his wand off to the side, he settled between Tybalt's legs, a predatory smile curving his mouth. "You're all I want. All I need." Lifting Tybalt's hips, he positioned himself and eased into Tybalt slowly, a hissing breath escaping him as he buried himself in the tight heat of Tybalt's body. "Yes... just like this... perfect."
"Perfect," Tybalt agreed, holding his breath as Serenus took him, slow and deep. It felt right, wonderful, being filled with the hard heat of his husband, giving his body with complete love and trust. He stared up into Serenus' face, watching his eyes, seeing the reflection of his own feelings in their dark depths. He wrapped his legs around Serenus' hips, using the strength of his legs to pull Serenus even deeper. "Oh, yes. You drive me wild, love. I want to give you everything I have."
Groaning, Serenus thrust deep and held still, wanting to savor the connection for as long as possible; he gazed down at Tybalt, drinking in the fierce emotion he saw in Tybalt's vivid blue eyes, and it made him smile. Sirius' death wasn't the first loss he had experienced, and it certainly wouldn't be the last, but this served to remind him that life went on - and he had much to live for.
"You do," he murmured, bending to kiss Tybalt lightly once more. "Every day. I want it to be that way always. For the rest of our lives. I never want to forget what truly matters or take it for granted." A gleam of mischief flashed in his eyes. "Even if it takes shagging you senseless to serve as a reminder."
"I won't let you forget, never fear," Tybalt replied, smiling in a predatory fashion as he thrust his hips up. "Even if it takes letting you shag me senseless every day!"
It felt good to move, so Tybalt did it again, gasping as Serenus slid even deeper, making Tybalt burn with need. "Yes, oh yes. Like that, love, just like that. Please, Serenus... I need you so much!"
It was impossible to resist Tybalt's plea, and Serenus didn't bother to try. With a low growl, he began to move faster, taking Tybalt harder, each thrust becoming more demanding; he slid one hand down the length of Tybalt's torso and curled his fingers around Tybalt's hard length at last, stroking him with the rhythm of their bodies as he let go and let himself be swept away by rampant need.
"Yes!" Tybalt's voice was ragged as he gave himself over to Serenus' claiming, his hands on Serenus' shoulders, nails raking lightly down Serenus' back. He moved, matching Serenus' rhythm, the touch of Serenus' hand on his aching flesh almost too pleasurable to bear. He gazed up into Serenus' face, holding back nothing of his love and pleasure, letting Serenus see everything, open and vulnerable as he had ever been as he cried out, coming completely undone in Serenus' arms.
Serenus drank in the sight avidly, loving the fact that Tybalt had given himself over so completely, loving that he had given Tybalt such pleasure, and watching Tybalt in the throes of ecstasy made his own desire spiral out of control. He too gave himself over to need and pleasure, echoing Tybalt's cry as he flew apart, holding back nothing of his own. He had taken, and now he wanted to give, showing Tybalt his unfettered heart.
Tybalt watched Serenus shatter, stroking Serenus' damp skin and murmuring words of love and praise in English and Italian, feeling awed and blessed at being gifted with such trust, such love, by such a wonderful man. Serenus was all that he could ever want or need, and as Serenus' body relaxed, he urged Serenus down into his arms, pulling him tight against his body and pressing kisses of adoration all over Serenus' face. "Love you, love you so much," he said, his heart swelling with so much emotion it made it difficult to breathe.
Falling willingly into the embrace, Serenus relaxed in Tybalt's arms, limp with satiation, and he hummed with quiet pleasure as he nestled close and lifted his face to accept the fervent kisses. "Love you too," he murmured. He groped for his wand to clean them up with a charm, and then he fell silent for a moment; when he spoke again, his tone was pensive. "So many of us are left with regrets," he said, stroking Tybalt's chest gently. "I've resolved to make sure I don't have as many the next time I lose someone I care about. It's so easy to get caught up in a rut and forget to share things, but I want to try to be better from now on. That's why I want you to know and never forget how much I care for you, no matter what happens."
"I could never forget, because you show me every day." Tybalt turned his head, closing his eyes and breathing in Serenus' familiar scent, rich with passion. "And I want to show you, too. No regrets, not ever, and especially not between us. We'll both be better with others, though, family and friends, everyone who matters."
Lifting his head slightly, Tybalt looked into Serenus' eyes. "Maybe in a couple of weeks, we should have everyone over. To just be together, you know? So that we can make sure to keep in touch."
"I like that idea." Serenus stroked Tybalt's cheek and smiled at him affectionately. "I like having an open door to our friends and family. It reminds me of home." He paused and looked chagrined. "Which reminds me I need to get in touch with Seraphina and my other friends. Perhaps you and I should take the boys for a visit soon."
Tybalt laughed, nuzzling Serenus affectionately. "All right, all right... but not tonight, okay? Tonight is for us, and all the life-affirmation you need."
"No, not tonight," Serenus agreed amiably, nuzzling Tybalt in return. "Things have been so difficult lately, and I think we definitely need some time for us." He smiled, his expression turning mischief. "And definitely some more life affirmation."
"Good!" Tybalt licked his lips playfully. "I have plans for you, my pretty. As soon as I get my strength back, that is. Did you know that Serenus is my favorite flavor?"
"I think you've mentioned something like that before," Serenus replied, lowering his lashes coyly even as he snuggled closer and twined his legs with Tybalt's. "But I think it's better if you show me."
Laughing happily, Tybalt did just that.