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mr. bucket; buckets of fun (sgt_barnesjb) wrote in snapthread,
@ 2019-03-13 08:09:00

Entry tags:

bucky barnes (mcu), steve rogers (mcu)

WHO: Bucky Barnes (MCU) and Steve Rogers (MCU)
WHAT: Hey, you're here too. Yup.
WHERE: Outside of where Steve's living
WHEN: Evening
RATING: Low, maybe some swears and feels we'll see.

Everything was confusing and nothing made sense. Bucky was trying not to overthink, to venture into territory with no answers because he knew it wouldn't get him anywhere at the moment. He'd learned a few things in the short time he'd been there. Thinking smaller, to the more immediate situation surrounding him was also very confusing. In his welcoming with America, he'd learned that there was a Steve Rogers and a Tony Stark in what he'd also learned was now called Starklandia (really). He'd also found out that Stark knew him. He was guessing, based on a comment Stark made that meant that Steve knew him, too. Of course, immediately, he wanted to go to Steve because that was just sort of instinctual for him. But he hadn't, not yet. Honestly he didn't even know if Steve knew he was there, if Stark told him or anyone else. He doubted it, since Steve hadn't come looking for him. There was a reason Bucky was lurking, but he didn't think he could do it forever. He just needed to do some observation, first.

And he had. Which was exactly why he'd stayed away. Steve, who he was 99.9% sure was the Steve he'd known forever, was living with Tony Stark. He didn't really understand why that was, but that was Steve's business. Last he knew, they were at odds and a lot of that had to do with him -- Bucky. If Steve was trying to survive in this place with Stark, Bucky didn't want to cause problems with that. He didn't want to be the cause for a rift, again. But this place wasn't that big, and he'd engaged in a brief interaction with Stark that didn't immediately lead to a manhunt so he figured that would mean it was safe to talk to Steve. Maybe.

So he decided to wait. Outside, across from where he'd seen Steve and Stark coming and going. Bucky wasn't really sure what to think, say, or do. But he needed to see Steve. He needed to know where and when he was from, too. He leaned himself against a tree, waiting for some sort of sign of life to emerge -- hopefully of the Rogers variety, as opposed to the alternative.

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sgt_barnesjb
2019-03-31 07:07 am UTC (link)

There really wasn't much else to say about it. They'd lost. Half of the universe was gone, Bucky included. He didn't have it in him to ask Steve who else had vanished. It wasn't fair to drag that up and the hurt that went along with it. Steve already likely was carrying most of that weight anyway, if Bucky had to guess. What could they have done? It wasn't as though Thanos had picked and chosen who lived and who died. And even if there had been a choice, Bucky would've preferred to be the one out of the two of them to go. Steve had more to give to the world, and the other Avengers needed him even if they were frayed and scattered all over the place. It wasn't fair for Steve to have that on his shoulders either, but that was the way things were. Or had been. They were in a different place entirely now.

Bucky's gaze had fallen to the ground because it was easier to look there than anywhere else while he processed everything that had been said, and the fact that they had indeed lost. He appreciated that Steve wasn't trying to put on a brave face in front of him, assuring him that they would manage and get through it. He was being honest; he didn't know what to do. He was just as lost as everyone else and he wasn't afraid for Bucky to know it. They didn't keep secrets; never had. It wasn't them.

Slowly, he looked over at his best friend and reached out, resting his human hand on Steve's shoulder. Physical contact felt important right now, since he'd apparently vanished from the world back home. "I don't know either," he said. "But whatever it was brought me to you. Whether the intent behind all of this was good or malicious, I can't help but feel a little grateful for at least that part."

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captainhandsome
2019-04-03 06:59 am UTC (link)

Steve felt like the weight of half the universe sat on his shoulders, it felt like it had come down to him, they'd trusted him and he'd lead them into defeat. How many times was he supposed to watch people slip through his hands? To feel that loss? It already felt unbearable. But Steve did what he always did, picked himself up and put one foot in front of the other. So now to be here? With long quiet days, not running or hiding? Sure people hated it but there was a part of Steve, a big part, that had preyed for it. A chance to stop, to rest, to live. Steve was tired and it was the kind of tired that went past a good nights sleep, that held onto your bones and he knew Tony could see it, Bucky would too.

They both but on their brave faces, not looking at each other as they processed alone but together. There was an ease to it, familiar and Steve sighed as he closed his eyes.

Even with his eyes closed he felt Bucky's hand coming, he didn't startle or even open his eyes, his head tilting forward slightly. "What poem did you steal that line from?" Steve asked as he slowly lifted his head, a little smile in the corner of his mouth.

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