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Tweak says, "MONKEY!"

Steve Rogers (captainhandsome) wrote in snapthread,
@ 2019-05-20 14:41:00

Entry tags:

steve rogers (mcu), tony stark (mcu)

Who: Steve Rogers and Tony Stark
What: Talking and drinking
When: Evening
Where: Their house
Rating: Are we still warning for spoilers? Spoilers and feels and maybe other stuff.

Steve had been keeping to himself more than usual, sure he was still his friendly self, greeting people and staying on top of making Starklandia safe and as comfortable as it could be. But he was hurting and when Steve hurt, he tended to hide himself away. There was one person he couldn't hide from though, because he'd said that he wouldn't and he'd meant what he'd said, a Steve was faithful one hundred percent. But Tony knew him and he was giving him the space to Not Talk About It. So Steve hadn't withdrawn from him so much as just withdrawn, he stayed quiet in the chair on the other side of the porch, his feet kicked up and a large sketch book open in his lap.

Usually he liked to do landscapes, but he wasn't really thinking and what was coming out of the pencil was a bit of a collection of different parts of Tony. There was various angles of his face, sketches of his eyes and he'd moved onto his hands. He didn't even need to look up at him, Steve knew the parts of him so well it came easily from memory.

Somewhere in the 1940's, lost now and destroyed there had been sketchbooks full of things like this, pages of Bucky because then he'd been Steve's favourite subject. He was heartbroken and he knew that Tony had a pretty good idea why, but that he was also the one he wanted, the one he chose for a reason and one of those reasons was that Steve didn't need to be perfect for him, he just needed to show up.

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captainhandsome
2019-05-25 11:06 am UTC (link)

Steve had to remind himself to be gentle, not to grasp Tony hard because his hard was too much. But he liked to think he had a sense for it, that he'd always handle Tony like he was precious without thinking about it. But getting him up against something, now that was a guilty pleasure.

Tony biting at his lip like that sent electricity through him, no one had ever made him feel like that before. It wasn't like this was the first time he'd been with someone, although it was the first time it had been so important, but it felt so different with Tony. Steve chuckled at his comment, equally breathless as he slid his hand down his back. "Decent gives me something to work on I guess," he said as he brushed their lips together again. "Want to give me any pointers?"

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allaboutego
2019-05-25 04:51 pm UTC (link)

Tony didn't necessarily need, or even really want to be handled like he was constantly precious because he wasn't. He wasn't small or weak, and didn't want to be treated like he was. Sometimes, though. Sometimes he liked it because he knew Steve was doing it out of care and it made him feel just. Really important.

But being pressed up against stuff was even better.

He chased after Steve's mouth again, it made all the easier with his hand on his back, the fact that they were still so close to each other, like they were connected. One more kiss seemed appropriate, and even numbers were important. "I'll give you pointers later," he decided against Steve's lips. "You promised me pizza."

It'd be easy -- really easy -- to just fall into bed (or a convenient flat space) with Steve right now, but it would probably be the wiser, more mature thing to take a second and really let the moment sink in for the both of them.

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captainhandsome
2019-05-26 12:24 pm UTC (link)

He had promised him pizza and Steve, while he'd melted into him, knew that getting dinner rather than covering up hurt with something physical was a smart choice. Steve wanted to be intimate because of how strongly he felt, that they both felt, not to block something out.

"Well I keep my promises," Steve said with a nod. He brushed their lips together again and gave his hand one last squeeze before he pulled away.

Steve wanted them to be alright, he wanted to know that more than anything. But that was the thing with this, it was all the great unknown. He had to just feel it out as it went and enjoy the moments as they happened. It was terrifying, but he wouldn't change it. "I'll be back before you know it."

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