Steve was a confident person in a lot of ways, he was a good leader, a kind person, easy on the eyes maybe. He didn't get caught up in thinking about those things much, but when it came to Tony all he felt like he could see in himself was short comings. Tony who could have whatever he wanted, whomever he wanted, it was difficult sometimes to think that could ever be him. That's why the news of his future, of wife and child was so hard for him, because he'd never be able to do that, to be that.
But they were there, they were there and even knowing what he could have Tony lay with him and that wasn't nothing.
Things were done, Steve knew that, what he didn't know was what came next. Natasha's knowledge had ended with her and Steve didn't know how he'd ever sleep again. His head hurt with an adundance of thoughts, wondering how he'd ever have continued on without her.
He closed his eyes when Tony's fingers slid into his hair, breathing out slowly as he nuzzled the side of his neck. "Tony," he murmured softly in reply. He was right, of course he was and Steve was used to that. "If that's what you want? That future? I support it, I- I'll always be here. But I can't let you have it this time without you knowing that this? This could be your future, if you wanted it," his throat was tight as he confessed it, saying something so deeply personal that he had to force every word of it. "That this is what I want."