gwen (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} itsybitsyspidey) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} snapthread, |
Part of the reason Gwen actually liked being in Starklandia was because she could finally stop. She wasn't having to avoid Frank Castle or Matt Murdock, she wasn't ghosting her dad's phone calls or feeling like shit for missing another band rehearsal because she was was fending off the city from more Lizard monsters. She didn't have to avoid looking up for fear of seeing another billboard spray painted with graffiti calling Spider-Woman a murderer. She wasn't at a constant tug-of-war with herself, feeling awful for not being Gwen enough, or not being Spidery enough.
"Oh yeah, I've got a problem," Gwen said. "But that's the first step, right? Admitting it? But I mean, I'm not really looking to quit them so." She shrugged and drank down a little more of the liquid in her cup. It was more yummy now.
Gwen didn't mind talking about Em Jay. She had such a rollercoaster of a relationship with her, but knew she'd never really break away from her even when she drove her nuts. Really, she was surprised Em Jay and the other girls hadn't just given up on her. Sometimes she thought the only reason they hadn't was because they didn't think they could replace her in the band. But there was a part of her that really hoped it was because they loved her like a sister despite all her issues.
"We get into spats a lot but I guess that's kinda normal," she said. "As soon as I can get my iPod charged again you can listen to some of our songs if you want." Gwen leaned forward, resting her chin in her hand. She was feeling a little warm in her belly. "Man, I bet they're so sore at me. I've never been gone this long before."